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Saturday, April 15, 2006

It's a very tired day for me... i really juz wanna sleep for the whole of the 11 hours i worked ...i can fall asleep juz by standing .. haha... a living zombie.. recently i really love this song called... Rainbow heaven it's really a touching chinese song... It will be great if i'm able to compose a track like this.. in future.. haha.. To touch many hearts.. with nice lyrics and a beautiful melody to blend with it...

Yesterday i got like ticked off for like no reason at work.. it's really upsetting at times to work there..I think i've came up with the decision to leave... i guess i'm going job hunting soon... cant stand that place..felt even worse yesterday... there were like tears in my eyes.. as i was on my way to meet up with teacher and the rest..maybe coz i'm listening to that rainbow heaven song along the way.... i walked the wrong direction ....as a result..coz wasnt really concentrating on the way to reach there...i acted like normal.. when i'm there at the pub.. sang two songs on stage.. one song.. alone the other with my other friend..it's like karaoke session there... everyone is eager to go on stage i guess...i met this weird man who introduce himself to me in the toilet .. coz it's shared .. de... then i'm like waiting for my friend to come out from the cubicle was afraid he might juz unzip his pants or something haha luckily he didnt.. Phew..

anyway coming back to my work..It's useless to have any complaints coz i'm juz a lowly part-timer..no body takes my words into consideration anyway.. juz feel totally unappreciated there.. after u worked hard to sell a fruit... and in the end still got questioned in a way tt i didnt deserve the money at all... it's really very discouraging...so from today onwards until the day i leave i am not going to attempt to sell that fruit anymore... no one appreciates it anyway.. it's an obligation..

Enough of that sickly place.. i didnt had it good at home too.. sighz.. quarrels happened at home too...my life's hasnt been good these days... oh no... really upsetting .. wun go into detail.. but juz wanna say that even if i'm not the one involved in the quarrel itself... i'm also indirectly very affected .... it's juz tt usually the pple who are quarelling dun really spare a thought for the feelings of the pple around them...sighz.. forget it.. it's beyond my control..

Everything's quite on the down side for me now.. i hope things will get better soon.. :-( In a confusion state myself too..of course it's easy to say ignoration is the best remedy.. but u know often it's easier said then done..no one will actually understand fully how i feel.. sometimes even me myself dunno what's wrong with me.. ..but by the time dawn breaks tomorrow.. i am going to smile as usual.. like i always do..coz i believe showing ur despair doesnt help at all...so better to make a person's day by smiling rather than making a person worry with teary eyes..and sad expression..tt certainly wun solve the problem at all....

Cheers!

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