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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

I juz came back from malaysia yesterday night... i was very upset upon seeing my grandma's condition...constantly wondering why such a kind-hearted lady like her had to go through all this...i was by her side for the past 2 days...looking at her wrinkled face juz evoke all the past memories i had with her... how she used to take such great care of me.... how she fed me .... teach me to sing oldies.... now she even have difficulty talking...

At the moment... her condition had stabilized.. i hope everything turned out to be fine... she used to be able to tok so loudly effortlessly but now every word that came out fro her mouth appeared to be so tedious... she even had difficulty opening her eyes to look at me... each time she struggled to talk...or when the fit came (her entire body will shiver once in 15 minutes) ... i just couldnt control myself from crying... I know crying doesnt help her condition... my cousin even told me not to cry becoz she was afraid that , if grandma knew that we are crying over her.. she will be very upset...

As much as i could not bear the thought that she had to leave us one day..The sight of her suffering now.. pains me even more....

I really missed those days when she was well... she was constantly there for me... she was afraid that i am hungry ...afraid that i will catch a cold.... its totally impossible to list everything out.. she is juz too incredible to be true....

It's juz too painful to see her lying there now.... she's never been so ill before....

I'll continue to say my prayers for her......i hope she will be able to pull through this obstacle...

(Actually Written On 2006-03-27 01:29:23)

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