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Sunday, April 23, 2006

Well i'm back from M,sia... i noe the next qns for anyone who's been reading my blog will be how's my grandma... well the answer is her condition is still not very good.. as usual there were tears welling up my eyes as i saw her crying for the first time... i've never seen her cry for the last 20 years of my life... :-( i told her not to cry.she say it's painful... oh gosh i was speechless.. my godmother was the one who still got the strength to console her.. i was the useless bum who apparently juz stood there like a statue... looking at her dunno what to do.... it took me quite some time before... i found the strength to speak again.. i told her to be strong.. everything is going to be fine... to bear with it for now...

Before i continue.. i would like to take the chance to thank my teacher.. for making an effort to write me the chords for my grandma's favourite song "wang chun feng"despite him feeling unwell..i appreciate his help..:-p. cos his help allowed me to have the chance to do something for my grandma at least... I played her this song.. as loud as possible.. as she is hard of hearing now. Despite her having difficulty speaking... she's like whispering ... under her breath... "nice nice"... in hokkien.. she even whispered something about the song..she say this song is a very pitiful song.. everytime i sing that song she will say that... in the past.. Btw... she taught me how to sing this song...i've never heard of the David Tao version .... I played her other songs too... "yue liang dai biao wo de xin"....etc...but i think she still love "wang chun feng"... the most...so glad i got the chords....thks King kong! :-p..

Despite her being sick.. she still constantly think about us.... keep whispering us to go home early coz we need to work/study tomorrow... she always puts others on top priority at all times... i missed the loud "speaker " voice she used to have in the past..to think tt i used to complain about how loud her voice is ... now i juz want that voice to be back... ... looking at her now u dunno how much i will do anything to turn back time...to get back to the past... of course i know it's wishful thinking.... u noe when someone is desperate .... the person can think of anything so ridiculous...*sighz*

*Certain things are really impossible...Never possible... Ntg is going to come out from it.. Ntg shld come out from it anyway..at the end of the day, I will only be the one to be ridiculed..*

i shall not elaborate on the above sentence juz a thought. tt suddenly flashed across my mind....Guess i shall end here now...hope that tmr is going to be a fine day.. it's the first day of school in a brand new environment.. Sentosa... wish me all the best...!

Cheers!

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