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Sunday, April 30, 2006

Today was juz another ordinary day at work.. i worked at RF.. get to know a new colleague.. who's a part timer juz like me.. well we got along well... but it's only been a day cant really say much about a person.. but she's quite a quiet person.. i knocked off at ten today..was feeling sooooo hungry .. feeling as though i can eat like everything tt's edible... i ate chicken rice at 5.. but was apparently starving at around 10...i bought quite a lot of stuff from 7 eleven.. cup noodles.. chocolate.. some canned food.. bread etc... i find that i buy a lot when i'm hungry... but ended up finishing not even half of what i've bought.. never mind save the other cup noodles for tomorrow.. haha.. I juz ate like one cup noodles.. a chocolate and one bun..a bit too full to sleep now.. oh gosh...

I cant explain fully how i felt today... felt a little down. .. i dunno why...i may be busy crapping with my colleagues the whole time... laughing ... and everything .. but deep down i felt a tinge of emptiness. .. juz let me hear one sad song is enuff to bring me to tears..esp if the song relates to me ....i wonder why.. Then went home to find the house quite empty... my whole family had gone to Malaysia.. to fetch my mom home... except for Bambi of course.. The fact that no one's home ... adds on to the loneliness... luckily there's still Bambi around.... :-p... sometimes .. i felt that i'm a weird person....at certain times... i can be soooo hyper.. at other times.. i can feel like so alone.. , left out and so unloved... I guess mood changes... too...i dunno why i feel this way....I feel silly at times.. because .. things dun usually go my way....knowing that reality bites.. certain things are never possible...it's a fact i'm sure of..but i chose to believe in miracles... although it doesnt really exist in this situation... coz i can fully understand my position in ur heart....... so ignore me... I'm always constantly imagining the impossible... i'm fine... i'm used to situations like these... not a lucky person in relationships i guess...well... juz gotta accept it...

well, tomorrow will be a better day i guess... life moves on.. i gotta tough week ahead of me.... it's the week by which real work starts... tutorials ... lectures...and assignments.. etc... i will be working the following 2 days.. then tuesday have lessons from 9 all the way to 6 i think with only a pathetic one hr break... then after which will rush to OB for guitar lessons.. :-p.. it's what i look forward to everyday... coz i get to play guitar with friends.. and also get to see lao shi and jiahui :-p the only time when i'm truly happy is when i'm playing my guitar and singing... happier if it's with my lao shi , jiahui and friends... it's fun when everyone around u shared the same passion..:-p okok.. hope everything goes smoothly...from tuesday onwards i'll be so occupied with lessons that i'll have no time to feel down or anything haha.... then i guess maybe that tinge of emptiness will go away... hopefully...

Still hoping my Grandma to get well asap... i dun wan further sufferings for her..Hope lao shi hurry up go for health screening and regain his health asap...Hope to have some home-cooked food by my mom soon... missed her cooking but not her nagging haha...

29-4-06

11.55pm

Cheers!

12:30:00 AM