Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Today's quite a peaceful day ... as long as i dun work there... then it cant be that bad.... didnt post any blog yesterday... reached home at around 3 plus...yesterday... then spent some time tuning my guitar with the new tuner that teacher helped me buy... was happy to finally own a tuner dun have to constantly rely on others to make my guitar sound right... ;-p
I went to k box today... with suhui and suhua.. everything went well initially.... but too bad that suhui gotta leave in less then 30 minutes... havent even finished her drink yet... as she received news that her grandpa's condition was in serious condition.... I messaged her after which..n found out that her grandpa had unfortunately passed away....I felt sorry for her... i told her to be strong because this is the time during which her mom needed her the most... I'm sure she will be able to pull through this....
I didnt really enjoyed myself in Kbox.. which is really unusual... for a person like me who loved singing soooo much.. throughout the whole singing session i was busy thinking about how suhui's doing... and also it also sort of reminded me of my grandma's situation... She's always on my mind without a doubt... of course i hope she can pull through this..... but i think i can juz leave it to the hands of fate to decide what's best for her....
Perhaps... this is juz a cycle of life... each and everyone of us has to go through this whether we like it or not.... from an innocent baby.. to a teenager ... and adult... then an elderly.....
i sort of think that certain behaviour of the elderly people....sometimes remind me of how kids behave... i have no idea how to put it into words on how i feel .... but they juz do.. in small ways....
or at least that's what i thought .....
Moving on to the other matters...i checked my mail today... never really expected a reply anymore after some time.. i thought there will be no reply.... but nonetheless i got a reply...but the reply actually was juz what i expected from this person......there was mention of whether we are still friends etc....and whether there will be any possibility for any form of forgiveness... even if it will take 1 year... 2 years... or 5 years... for someone to write this i think it's rather contradictive .... since it's so easy to have crushes in juz a few months... then i really dun think i will still be remembered after a year.... probably after another few months.... i do not even exist at all..... so let alone toking about a year?
perhaps we juz see things diffferently... i see Time as a really good test for any form of relationship ... repeatedly say it so many times...but maybe not everyone thinks so... it's a difficult test i noe.. but it all depends on whether the parties involved are willing to do it or not...
If this test cant even be passed through then i dun think anyone should dare mention the word "Love" in this relationship...
And also .... another thing i constantly believed in.... Actions speaks louder than words.. mere words gets a person no where.... ... to me, saying n toking about how good u r...is juz like a rocking chair... it gives the person something to do but gets the person absolutely no where......
I always believe if a person wans to do something very much ... NOTHING can stop the person at all!.... but this of course depends on the person's will which is most important coz that's the main force that keeps the person going..on and on.....
Guess i shall stop here... before i bore anyone in any way...
May suhui's grandpa rest in peace......
May my grandma get well asap........
Cheers!
8:24:00 PM
