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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

It's been a while since i last posted something here.. been real busy these days... with school, with work, with guitar .... i guess i will get even more busy as time goesby as the assignments and projects pile up.. and when the deadlines are getting near... kinda scary to think about it.. :-(

Well.. had a general glimpse of my new classmates in this semester..one word about them.. majority of them are quiet pple... i guess i'm not always a sociable person at all times..at times i can talk to practically everyone in sight... whether i noe them or i dun... but these days in school.. i juz dun get the urge to try to break into conversation with the pple in my class.. some of them does looked hostile.. n unapproachable.. But it's different when i'm in OB... i can tok to practically everyone there as long as they want to :-).... But when i'm in Sentosa.. at most times i juz wish to be alone.. it's weird and so unlike me ... i think i need to see a shrink on regards to my spilt personality.. :-(....Today i took the 2 feeder buses alone out of Sentosa to the bus terminal.. the first time in these 2 weeks that i took these 2 buses alone.. saw one of my classmates ... should have said a Hi or at least smiled..but i juz dun have the mood to do so.. i wonder y... nothing against that person really.... I sat on the bus reflecting on my personality and behavior...which leaves me to wonder.. which one is the real me? the bubbly..humourous.. lame individual? or is it all juz a front?or am i actually unfriendly.. serious .. boring...at heart? i couldnt come out with an answer.. becoz. i behave differently at different times... periods.. depending on location... environment.. many factors both external and internal that affect me.. guess i'm easily affected most by the environment i'm in....I kinda missed my old classmates in year 1... my dearest Mary...(Angeline)..(wanna thank her for taking the time to draw me my time-table... thanks for remembering my Bambi Logo hehe:-p ... will indeed miss u not only during the breaks but always ... hahaha:-p dun too hao lian hor) Linda.. (my all time project and study buddy... missed her too) Joch.. ( red lobster face? what else more to say? hahaha:-p ) Although i still see them around in school... but it's easy to sense the difference when u dun share the same class.. schedule different... less time to eat together...unlike the past.. guess we will gradually drift apart day after day... under such circumstances...tt's life...now gotta get used to my new class....do i have a choice?heya...I saw my lao shi , me and gang on tv yesterday already... hahahah :-p....i think everyone looked great except me haha... i looked so blur and out of place tt day....shucks..i waited till 1230 to watch it.. coz they repeated another programme before that.(how could channel U do that when they state there so clearly there's a repeat at 12am.. that's like lying to viewers lor.) me and my friend were like smsing each other to keep each other awake whilst waiting for the repeat to start...Lao shi didnt get to watch it too bad he's working during both times when the show is aired ... repeat also cant watch.... but i got my friend to help me record it i wonder if it can be played on Lao shi's computer at OB.. coz it's in DVD format.. dunno can a not... hope it works... :-p Going for lessons tomorrow too :-p jiahui bringing her guitar along... hurray!.... not like OB dun have guitar it's juz tt i dun like playing on classical guitar.. i wonder when will i be able to rightfully own a brand new good quality guitar ? i wan something like jiajun's and lao shi's guitar... but too bad short of cash.. still need to bring Bambi for grooming .. and check-up ... i think i gotta slowly save up for a new guitar already... maybe until next year? my birthday then i get one for myself haha...and hopefully by then can afford a good digital camera for me to take pictures...too :-p...the 2 most wanted items on my list ...i will get it one day *you yi tian wo hui*.. i will work hard for it.. :-p i start school at one on friday... i was wondering if i shld catch lao shi and Fion's performance tomorrow night i will see how it goes.. juz dun quite like the arrogant boss there...he walks with his head up... and no matter how many times u visit the place he doesnt smile to u, he doesnt say hi..... really lacking of good service qualities... i think he needs to come to Sentosa sit together with me next semester during Service lesson... he badly needs it... but to put it in another way he only treat u well if u are a customer with strong spending power.. tt's how practical he is... :-( who's money more.. he will go where lor... materialistic A%^@~^%... and constantly wanna go up on stage to sing...haiz i rem once i listen to him until i fell into dreamland.. was about to snore hahahaha.. everytime he sang i never once clapped... Btw...I gave lao shi the addresses already yesterday when i was at OB... it's now all up to himto make an appointment... :-p... but i noe he will surely drag and drag..coz he still got some medicine to see him thru these few days..gotta nag at him.. push him to do it asap because he stil owe me some songs... and chords...so he better get well soon.. then he will hav no excuses not to give them to me...:-p hahaha

Oh and i juz realised one thing.. i have NO complete off day ... mon to fri daytime in school... night time... mostly at OB ... Sat to Sun working... usually full or half shift... ] sighz.sad right?.. tired.. but gotta try my best to earn as much as possible.. before my projects and assignments become too busy until i cant work then at least still got some excess cash to spend, during the period in which i stop work temporarily for projects... Sometimes i really admire those students tt can study full time without having to worry about not enough cash .... dun have the need to work part-time... can concentrate fully on school and stuffs they liked... for me i juz have to forgo my sleeping hours in order to get the cash... and at the same time catch up with school work.. n engaging in the stuffs i love .. (guitar) I guess life's never fair right from the start..it's a harsh reality to face.. juz have to focus on what i have instead.. to stay happier..but have to admit for all these years.. i havent been a lucky person in some areas... esp relationships.. :-(... misunderstandings... miscommunication.. difference in opinions..it's really tough to find someone tt really connects with u at heart... even harder to find someone who loves u as much as u love him...u noe it's most wonderful when both parties felt the same way for each other.. i think tt's rare..or is it juz rare to me? Maybe it might never happen to someone like me... i dunno... juz wish it will happen one fine day.... :-p

Well..Been thinking hard about which business i wish to venture in.. with regards to my project on Basic entrepreneurship.. i think it's real difficult.. to write a proposal..esp when i know absolutely nothing about setting up a business... that have the real facts.. and genuine qualities to convince and persuade.. gotta know.. the target market.... the figures.. estimation.. etc... SHUCKS! GoSH!... somebody pls get me out of this ... :-(

i paid attention during marketing tutorial class today.. and tutor told us about business life in the real world... politics...how pple back stabbed each other.... gain credit that dun belong to them..... the selfishness of colleagues... who is constantly afraid u might outshine them.. and get a promotion or increment...On hearing this juz make me drat to step into the business world... Life will be even more upsetting then... I guess juz gotta treasure who and what i have now..i dun wish to start regretting only after i lose them.. it's painful.. oh no wrote quite long today.... hehe guess shall end here for now...BTw enjoyed the guitar and singing session i had with my cousin yesterday and today...in fact we juz finished it haha :-p... may she dream about the song tonight..haha:-p

*I prefer to leave certain things unsaid.. but tt really doesnt mean i dun feel anything for it***I guess some things are meant to be left unsaid... maybe ambiguity is best in some situations***Learning the art of wave catching*

May my grandma get well soon... :-p oh and lao shi too haha :-p

05-05-06

9.06am

Cheers!

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