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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Had a hard and tough day today, really tiring.. guess i'm gonna hate Mondays in future (gotta wear the thick chef uniform) and probably Tuesdays too...(gotta wear formal to Sentosa). I woke up at 5.15am today.. coz gotta go to school early juz in case i cant wear the damn uniform on time.. gotta assemble at 8am sharp.The first bus to Sentosa was at 7am.. we reached at around 6 plus we took the cab in the end....

Putting on the neckerchief is a very big challenge... but the biggest challenge will be to put away all baby hair away into the chef hat.. i did almost everything, put gel,wear 2 hair nets... tie.... such a hard work... i'm already perspiring like a pig before the lesson even started... gosh... ! i cant tell u how much i hate it... juz as u tried urbest to put those irritating hair away.. only to realise that the experienced chefs there have like more crumpled uniforms then u do.. and more baby hair sticking outof their hats... so ironic right? They stressed so much on all the neatness crap and some of them never really set a really good example.. not all ... but some..And to make matters worse... the temperature contrast is drastic as usual... it's so burning.. and i really meant burning hot outside... but it's freaking freaking cold in the kitchen.. havent been to such a cold kitchen before ....

Furthermore, the food there SUCKS!.. maybe it's becoz there's only like ONE PATHETIC food stall there... the most convenient one for us.. there is like no competition unless if u have longer breaks then can go out of TAS to eat more edible food... but all my breaks are only one hour.. if ever wanna go out and eat it will be really rush.The canteen area is burning hot too... can like sun tan whilst ur eating... the sun is able to get through the translucent shelters situated there... it's the worse school canteen ever... lousy structure.. lousy food.. limited choices of everything.. food ... drinks... etc... OH GOSH.... I really really MISS TP like crazy.. not juz the food alone butpractically EVERYTHING.... the com lab.... the photocopy services.. the big library..... the temperature there is also not as drastic as in TAS.. and the location is convenient.Being that i dun have to take the 2 compulsory buses into the school everyday... to and fro everyday..

It's funny how i only treasure the facilities in TP... after i'm force to forgo these facilities for a year.... i feel like i'm in for national service... tough training... packedtime table on a hot island... with lousy food... then for culinary science we are being checked in the mornings on our uniform, hair and fingernails.. etc.. really like army....Maybe it's human nature.. we only realise the worth of certain things only after we lost it... :-( I also really missed my old classmates in year one.. like crazy..the feeling is totally different from newly made friends in my new class... and there are some i mean some... unfriendly ones.. when u tok to them.. they give u those kind of blank look and then walk away pretending that u did not spoke to them.... :-( saddening... i hate it when i made the first move to engage in small talk with astranger.. but that person juz totally ignored ur efforts to be friends... i mean at least smile.. or reply a short reply la.. like "ok".. "oh i see".. etc.. this is basic courtesy... it's totally rude to totally act as though the person did not speak to u.. when the person juz did... :-(" Dun do to others.. what u dun wan others to do to u" hope the person understand this....well it happened to me today in the kitchen.. with who i should not mention any names here...well i had a really bad, tedious and tiring day today... :-( It's not i didnt try to make friends.. but u noe it takes 2 hands to clap... muz i always be the one to make the first move? *sighz*

I juz finished doing my a/cs tutorial.... wanna try to do more work today coz tomorrow will be going for guitar lessons... this week only got time to go once :-(coz this friday is public holiday... as usual i will be working full coz got 1.5.. more pay.. and in order to get that 1.5 i gotta work on the previous day which is Thursday... so gotta rush off to work after school on Thursday... so cant go for the thursday guitar lesson as well :-(.. not that i wanna miss it... it's juz that i need money.. my dog need sit for check up and grooming services... gotta pay for all these... and hopefully save up to buy a new guitar.. i think new guitar gotta wait... le.. :-( I envy those pple who can rest at home during public holidays.. while i juz cant afford to... :-( i used to look forward to public holidays in secondary school... but now it doesnt make a difference to me.... last time public holiday equals to rest and slack day.. but now it's different ... public holiday equals to working day... andnon-public holiday equals to schooling day... sianz...:-(.. besides guitar really ntg much to look forward to.....

But sadly, sighing doesnt help the situation .. but one thing i'm sure of is.. i'm really very tired..and have been neglecting my darling Bambi these days...not that i dun love her anymore.. it's juz that everytime i get home.. feel too tired to bring her down for her walks.. and i'm seldom at home to accompany her... this sunday i finally got an off-day.. to bring her for grooming... :-p.. to check out her skin condition... etc..

On a lighter note, something happier to mention.. i slept at around 1 plus yesterday...getting only 4 hrs of sleep as a result... i stayed up so late to play my guitar..suddenly gotta mood, feelings and inspiration to create a melody for a song.. actually it's juz changing the way of singing of that song.. retaining the chords and lyrics..for the time being.. i havent pen any good lyrics that are worth of any recognition.. juz some scribbles here and there... so i juz focus on changing the melody ofexisting songs for now.. so as to practise to create my very own songs in the near future... hopefully soon.. :-p I changed the tune of one chinese song yesterday ..hehe by the name of " ai shi ni yen li de yi shou qing ge".... i changed until the style quite different from the original version haha .. :-p..quite glad of it actually haha .. :-pbut lao shi will probably laugh if he hears it... so not gonna let him hear it yet haha... :-p he better hurry up help me find out more bout the pub... hehe

*Maybe, ... we could be more than juz amazing?***Maybe, ... I'm a dreamer, i juz wish to believe in the impossible, maybe believing in something does makes one happier.. even if u noe it's never possible? ***Maybe, ... I shld juz stop these nonsense...??? And perhaps bid it with the sweetest goodbye???**

08-05-06

9.45pm

Cheers!

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