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Sunday, June 04, 2006

it's been a week since i last wrote something..many things happened .... impossible to pen it all down , juz list down some stuffs that i remember... and would like to share...

Firstly is of course..the combination of projects/deadlines together with work.. and guitar never fail to make me feel so short of time...everyday of my life i'm forced to complete something... well that's life. i felt so helpless and lost at times....and given my absent minded personality i have a difficulty to rem deadlines...that's one area of me i'm trying to seek improvement from... juz handed in the basics ent project.. hope i will be able to pass... although the numbers i put in are all made up... and it really does seem to tally to what a real biz should be like... may god bless me... i really dun wish to retake this subject..i handed in my marketing individual project too.. the deadline was on friday.. it was quite a rush for me.. not that i purposely procrastinated .. it's juz that i really have difficulty doing it... feel so helpless doing this project..there were a few times when i juz on the pc and stare at the screen for seconds not doing what to do next.. felt so stuck..tried to seek help from a friend... but in the end... sort of felt a bit played out..i was told to send my work on wed... and he will try his best to help me edit.. but in the end until thursday msged him on msn.. no reply.. hp also no reply.. i noe this person has got no obligations to help me or whatsoever.. and everyone's got their own life to lead...but then if u knew u may not have the time to help then shld juz say so right from the start... In the end , i was left to slogged all the way till the wee hours of the night to think of something to complete the project.. i woke up early to complete it.. but was still late for lesson .. but in the end i finally made it to hand in that project..i hope i can pass well.. but at least i tried my best... :-p After this incident i truly understood the real meaning of *kao ren bu ru kao zi ji * an impt lesson to remember...

Okie.. enuff of the projects i'm left to worry abt my a/cs mid sem test next tuesday.. oh gosh!... i'm on my way there... on revision stage... trying to remember n learn efffectively all the stuffs required... wish me luck pple... :-p okie.. enuff about school work.. i noe it's boring.... haha..

Talking about other stuffs... well... i really feel that human relationships... are really complicated... i dunno whether to believe the rumours.. or continue to believe in what i wanna believe in... perhaps knowing less makes one a happier person..humans are fake.. that's a fact... the older we get the more we hide our emotions.. even if there are misunderstandings.. miscommunications.. and complicated issues within.... we continue to show a smiling face.. we can act as though ntg happened... as usual..deceiving ourselves that everything is fine..i admit that at times i'm guilty of being one of these fake human beings alive.. but in my heart i've got a million questions unanswered..not that it's intentional...I totally agree now that certain things it's not what it seems to be... everything may seemed well on the surface.. but it may berotting inside... :-( perhaps a person's working environment really does influence a person strongly.. but whether it can bring about changes to a person's character and values .i dunno.. Did a change in working environment spells the start of these conflicts? i'm still not willing to let go what i believed in.. i dun have the heart to ruin the perfect image in my mind... it's not a good feeling having to know stuffs that are forcing me to change my views and perceptions of my original beautiful image... it's like adding impurities into a glass of pure, clean water... making it lose it's original flavour.. ..or perhaps we are only hearing a side of the story.... and to be honest i wasnt really there to have the right to judge who's wrong or right.... im pretty confused abt the stories i heard too....and also didnt hear the stories from the other side... which further adds on the misunderstandings...

Life is full of mysteries i'm wana reveal...questions i wish to uncover..

alright gotta go and sleep.. gotta work tomorrow.. and then come home to study Accounting... sianz.. tmr working at mw...i rather stay at home... :-(

before sleeping let me introduce to u the 4 Ks.... issues to be learnt :-p

*Knowing someone too well....spoils the perfection & adds on to the imperfection*

*Keeping quiet does adds on to the misunderstandings and conflicts*

*Knowing that it isn't right to judge a person with a situation ur not even sure of*

*Knowing that certain stuffs are not always what it seems to be*

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*Singing leads my soul.. Guitar is a part of me.. Music captivates me*

*Saturday

03-06-06

11.25pm

Cheers!

11:17:00 PM