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Saturday, July 01, 2006

So how is it like living in a world without strangers...when u know everyone and everyone knows u.. seen this 3 words on the T-shirts of strangers ... seen it like around 2 to 3 times already... juz suddenly thought of it....

Sometimes when i'm alone i felt like i live in a world with only strangers....it's not like i dun have friends but sometimes friends cant always appear like magic whenever u feel lonely and empty..it's funny i thought if a person is busy you will not have the time to feel lonely at all... but i guess it's not entirely true....almost everyday... i rush from school to work or OB..but there are still times when i feel so alone.. i wonder why...

Perhaps i'm juz down.... that's all... juz one of my mood swings probably? i will be fine in a day or two.... Perhaps i live my life like a clown... i often say things that humor my friends... i make comments which they think it's funny..i enjoy making people laugh i crap a lot about anything.. and can talk to practically anyone as long as we understand the same language...haha...i appear to be a really jovial and happy person to be with ... but in fact i dunno if that's the real me....

In school... i hope for certain friends to be in the same class as i am... but hope and reality is different... i felt so lonely during certain lectures when i dun get to sit with my friends.. i can clearly hear other lecture mates talking and laughing in between lecture breaks... i sat there seeing people walking in pairs or in threes... to visit the toilet together....whilst i went alone... cldnt find anyone to go with me... ;-( so sad right? ... it's actually no big deal ... but juz felt left out during that point of time.. that' s all.....

Perhaps i'm a person who really needs company... it's juz as simple as that...

*Constantly in search of my true self..**

*I must have been such a child..during that point in time when i felt alone**

**No one likes to be alone.... even if they hate to admit it... but deep down.. i believe no one love the feeling of loneliness.... People who claim themselves as loners are merely juz people who couldnt find the courage to admit the truth.......I CAN'T stand loneliness!**

Saturday

6.00pm

01-07-06

*Singing leads my soul... Guitar is a part of me..Music captivates me*

Cheers!

5:50:00 PM