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Friday, October 13, 2006

I'm tired... yes indeed.. slept at 4am the previous night.. to work out the chords for dear darling siu yuin haha... :-p hope she will like it... may not be as good as the original of course.. but at least i tried... :-p hehe..

As tired as i am... i simply refuse to sleep ... maybe for now at this moment i juz dun feel like it? Juz feel like writing something...i'm writing in english, xiao hei.. r u reading? :-p

i'm a person with mood swings i guess... do all girls have it? i'm not too sure bout that... but i guess i do.. i can feel extremely moody all of a sudden.. like now? But most of the time for my case.. i tend to feel more insecure abt myself..perhaps i'm really that kind of person who constantly needs assurance from the people i love? i'm juz afraid pple might hate this part of me... of course i tried to cover it up... but sometimes i'm afraid it juz shows..

Maybe a small action .. a few words .. a few gestures may not mean a lot to some other people.. but to me.. it means a great deal.. althought i hate to admit this.. but it does..

Maybe i'm over-sensitive? Perhaps i simply juz think too much? sometimes i juz wonder why do i have to brood over little things and then make my life difficult? Why cant i juz think lesser? forget bout those minor stuffs and lead an easier life?

Sure.. i understand that worrying gets a person no where... but i juz cant help it...
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but i cannot keep complaining my worries to another person constantly.. coz firstly people have their own problems to worry about.. secondly... everyone will get tired of my worries... coz it only add on to their worries..
so the only outlet..... it's juz here lor... i guess....
that's what blogs are for? to vent all my frustrations ... emotions into words.. ? and then hopefully i will feel better after that....

but of course... i will act as though i'm fine everyday of my life... no matter how blue i may feel... coz it's no point to show ur emotions when it doesnt help to change it... so i guess it's normal for people to hide it.. people often always hide negative emotions ....

But no worries friends... i will always try not to let my negative emotions affect u... in any way...

*请原谅我的没自信。。。我也不想这样*

*每天每夜都不断在寻找着真正的自己。。。*

*过了明天就应该没事了吧？希望吧。。**

*不开心时，也害怕对你说。。只因为知道那只会增添你的烦恼。。*

*就算我想说。。你会愿意听吗？。。还是你早已被自己的烦恼压得再也容纳不
下任何的吵杂声？。。没关系。。我只是发发劳骚。。。*

*我是不是真的很没用呢？。。就只会增添别人的烦恼：-(我也不想这样。。*

13/10/06

Friday

1am

Cheers!

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