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Sunday, November 05, 2006

The earth continues to turn... each day passes as usual...nothing can stop this nature... no matter what happen.. be it a disaster... a joyous event...or....the loss of someone dear to u .. life still goes on...

it's a tough period to go through... besides having to get over this painful loss....everything continues as usual... school work... the overwhelming projects demand to meet... i think it's due to all the grief and the stress....the sleepless nights... the late nights out.. the irregularity of meals at times.... that's taken the toil on my body.... i finally fell sick.. i lost my voice....got quite a serious sore throat at the moment.. got some medicine to reduce the imflammation.... i could only whisper now.....or make a few sounds.... :-( it's such a torture esp for someone who love to sing so much... i have difficulty to speak let alone sing :-(

hoping to get well soon...

At the mean time.. i'm quite lost as to how to deal with the projects... i felt like i'm stuck in the maze ... sometimes it's not that i dun wanna do it.. it's i duno know how to go about doing it... where to start...? ..How to start? ... But i will try my best... that's about what i should do....

I juz felt that my life hasnt been that great these days.. ever since this semester start... there seemed to be quite a few unhappy events.... for this sem..everything seems so fast... the projects deadlines.... like so soon.. i dunno if i can survive.. coz i'm such a slow person in learning...
This is also the semester which i cried the most ever since the first day i step into Tp... coz of my beloved grandma.... ;-(

It's gonna take some time to get over this.... i still gotta cope with the school work too.....Life sucks...

*The smiles do not show the sorrow i experienced...I chose to face everyone with a smile... coz i do not like pple around me to be negatively affected by my emotions... it's unfair to them...it isnt their fault in the first place*

*When i'm alone.. i dun seem to be able to hold back the tears.... when i see ur photos... juz feel really down... coz i cant see u anymore... Grandma... can u appear in my dreams? pls pls ... i wanna see u again...**

*我还是好想你。。真的。。奶奶好想好想你。。你知道吗？*

*对你而言，这是一种解脱。。。对我而言。。失去你是我心中永远的痛。。奶奶，我爱你*

*面对着我身边的人。。依然带着微笑。。但背对他们的时候。。。仍然会不禁掉下眼泪。。

但还是要感谢身边的人。。分散我的注意力。。好让我能微笑**

*我不要一个人。。我讨厌一个人。。我不想一个人。。*

*有些事情。。对你而言，不算什么。。甚至可以说是微不足道。。。但对我而言，
却比你想象中的还重要。。。你懂吗？*

Sunday

05-11-06

8.06pm

8:31:00 PM