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Friday, December 15, 2006

These 2 days hasnt been tt great for me... not feeling well is one thing .. another thing will be some other personal matters....sometimes i feel like a failure... everything i do i'm always below others.... be it.. studies or other stuffs ... i may study hard for my exams.. but in the end my grades is still below others... does not really reflect the amount of hard work i put in at times....

Even things i love..for example guitar... i may have improved but still way way way below the standard.... can juz take it as i do not know what is a guitar.... ok.. maybe i set high expectations for myself on certain things....I put in effort...I tried....

Heard that stress is required in order to learn.... Perhaps i got to learn it the hard way... sometimes setting high expectations..... will cause me to fall harder......

Everyone's got a forte.. something they are extremely good at... but i dun think i have one... because... my standard is always average... passable but not that fabulous.... for everything i do it's never on the fabulous stage... it's always somewhere in the middle..... therefore.. constantly below others.... sometimes felt useless...

There's another performance again tonight.... i wonder how everything will go but anyway... this time i'm doing back up vocals.... not that important anyway haha...

It's really time to let the past be the past... i shld juz stop brooding over it...pointless and useless...

These days i felt quite blue... but i'm lucky that someone was there for me throughout.... at least i do not feel totally alone... The support ... the concern was deeply appreciated.. whenever i'm feeling the most down... the person was there... seen the most fragile part of me... and provide me with a shoulder to cry on....

U know who u r..... Thanks :-p hope that u will cont to support and care for me for always...ok?

*如果那天没有你的陪伴，我也不知该如何是好。。*

*原来当一个人感到最无助时。。可以如此脆弱。。这一面的我从来也很少被旁人看到。。唯有你感觉得到。。看得清楚我的感觉*

*世界上唯有你最懂我。。*

*希望能一直持续到最后。。不要改变。。*

*It’s touching if someone notices ur need without u having to say or do anything, and even more touching if the same person tries his best to satisfy ur need even before u take any actions to satisfy ur own needs. ..*

15/12/06

12.25pm

Friday

11:36:00 AM