Sunday, December 31, 2006
Juz another day lazing around at home...added some stuffs to my project.. but cannot work on some other projects due to the inability in internet connection at my home... sighz... so another day sort of wasted... i truly know the importance of internet access now... used to take it for granted...
Today it rained the whole day as usual... was suppose to meet someone actually today.. something cropped up didnt meet up in the end... kind of disappointedbut no one's to blame... but juz can't help feeling disappointed... got called back to school to practise but i did not go either... due to special reasons..I can't post this blog today (thursday) as there is no internet connection so only get to post this post today ...few days late
I was told not to go to music school alone ... due to special reasons.... I may have less freedom to do whatever i wan now... but i'm happier than before... It's a complete new experience for me.. coz i never experienced this form of control before...
A good friend of mine asked me how am i going to celebrate my 21st birthday which is juz a few days away... i scratched my head ... pause for a moment then realised that i do not know myself either... it's funny although it's going to be my birthday soon... i am not really looking forward to it...maybe coz i willhave to go back to school after that.. :-( Used to be quite excited about my birthday... but this year.. no.. not excited at all...maybe coz i already pictured that day... as juz another ordinary day... i know what's going to happen.. i know what to expect.. that's why dun feel any excitement ? probably so...For me...althought i love surprises like everyone else...i noe that no one is really oblige in providing me with any form of surprise... if there's any .of course it's a bonus and i will be real happy....but if dun have... then juz maybe smile and forget about it... tt's life... Surprises are bonuses ... I love it.. but i wun die without it...
Still rem my saddest birthday years ago... never forget that birthday... it was the worse.. not many pple know about this... but i will always rem it.. deep impression .. and i wun forget Landy wen's "Zhu wo sheng ri kuai le" song too...sad song that brought back some sad memories Looking at the past i learnt a lot...i was told by someone not to sing that song anymore..
i think i will spend January the 1st.. sleeping?.. doing project? ... resting? Going out? probably.. all expected... than it will be school reopen... projects.. tests and exams... all coming my way... i can already picture my stressed up look...i longed for march to quickly arrive coz that's when a genuine holiday starts..I longed to go overseas during that period..i never consider this 2 weeks break as a holiday coz i still got school work stuffs to worry about .... :-(...
I was happy the wish i made last year had came true... :-p Let's hope my wishes come true yearly.. :-p I already have in mind what i wanna wish for already hehe :-p
*glad that there was unhappiness when i have special contact with certain pple*
*希望你现在能够感受到我对你的关心
*从来也没有那么强烈的感觉。。一种连自己也解释不了的感觉。。好奇妙*
*从前不可能的都已变可能。。那世上还有什么事是不可能的呢？*
我清楚知道我要的是什么。。
Thursday
28/12/06
1:12:00 PM
