Wa... the projects are indeed giving me not only mental stress but also physical stress... it's draining my energy away day by day... i didnt expect this semester's work demand to be so high... everyday there's bound to be something to be completed so as to meet the sickening deadlines....:-(
Juz when u are looking foward to the mid-sem break... it turn out that there is another list of work and assignments to be done during that period too... oh gosh... juz shoot me...
I worked from 11 plus all the way till 5 plus on the fm project.... didnt expect it to take so long... been sitting in front of the pc for the past 6 hours or more..... :-( sad life
The stress of the projects together with the stress of my bank account too..... the stress increases with every cent withdrawn from the atm machine..... coz i've stopped work for quite some time and nothing is going into the account... only one way... going out..... on the other hand, i'm definitely not capable of continue working with all the projects demand... tt's the worse part...
suddenly missed those times in TP when i was in year one.... the project load wasnt so scary....
and the deadlines dun seem to be so close... the schedule of course less packed...
However, in life .. difficulties get more and more challenging as we grow older... that's natural and it happens to everyone... but perhaps for rich people they dun have to worry about their bank account... so it's one less stressful item to stress about... i gotta think for so long juz to get a new pair of ear phones... really is tong ren bu tong ming....
Oh juz feel like going on a holiday... go abroad... to escape from all these rubblish temporarily...
it's been a long long time since i went on a holiday.... not enough $$$ ..... havent found company who also wan to go on a holiday.... but anyway a bit hard la.... so many things to do sighz...:-(
I juz found out that even if a person doesnt eventually accomplish the things u wish the person wld accomplish ....as long as actions are taken by the person to show maximum effort in trying to accomplish the thing.... it's already enough to make me happy... but that's only if real actions are taken by the person to show that he care enough to try so hard to achieve that something.....
Sitting there giving excuses .... instead of finding solutions definitely shows that a person doesnt really care enough to take any actions to achieve that something to make another happy...
:-(
But then everyone got their own set of beliefs and values not everyone think the same way as i do... the definition of maximum effort also depends on individuals.. can't blame anyone :-(
Issues:
*Forcing someone to do something they dun feel the same way on... does not bring geunine happiness to me*
*I need a break.. away from all these rubbish.... i need a holiday... who doesn't?*
*It's touching if someone notices ur need without u having to say anything or do anything...and even more touching if the same person tries his best to satisfy ur need even before u take any actions to satisfy ur own needs....*
*still the same old saying as always...
Though words does makes a difference to make a person happy....
Action still speaks louder than words.... **
Saturday
6.05pm
02-12-06
