Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Independence is what every individual has to learn.... learning to be able to stand up straight when the going gets tough...learning to reduce over-dependence on others... learning to cope with stress....
For me, i dun really like to be independent unless i'm forced to ... depending on the situation... but if given a choice i rather be dependent on someone all the time.. ...to have someone to lean on whenever i needed help, a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on.... feeling's great... but at times i do have to learn to be independent when for certain reasons the person cant be there.... that is when learning to reduce over dependence on someone comes into picture... alright in the end i still have to learn to be independent .... when the situation calls for it.....
Ever since, i was very young... i depend a lot on my parents... i enjoyed it.... i only learn to be less dependent on them as i gradually grew older... guess it's natural.... hehe...
I have always been perceived as someone who is strong and tough ... both on the inside and outside... but in fact i dun really live up to that.... maybe strong on the outside is true.... on the inside? i dun think so... but for me it seems natural for me to put on a strong front in front of others... firstly.. dun wan to let my mood affect the rest... secondly... i juz dun see the need to appear so weak when it doesnt help to solve the problem at all....
However... always putting up the "strong " front can be tiring at times... when it does... some traces of unhappiness will tend to show... tt's when my acting fails...
guess i'm actually not as strong as i seemed to be..
Actually wat i meant juz now ..... was not exactly what u thought it was.. i'm willing to change.. however i juz needed more time.....i knew it's a flaw of mine... and i'm willing to change....
*我想听的不是听你说我为自己找借口。。。 我想听你说的是无论我有没有改。。只要我 尽力就足够。。。想听 你说, 无论我有 没有改。。。你依然会在我身 边支持着我。。**
你懂吗?
sighz....
Looks like it's going to rain soon... been so hot the whole day...
*Hope u get an easier job soon.... hate to see u looking so tired each time we meet.... *
*但愿我们一直没有烦恼,一直没有争吵。。让每天每夜象糖一样甜。。。
一直在我身边, 一直到永远。。。 *
*这些日子以来也已经习惯依赖着你熟悉的温柔。。我是不是应该独立多一些。。依赖少一些呢?
*傻傻的许下一个愿,但愿你的每一天幸福, 快乐 又安全。。*
只要有你就足够...
再坚强的人。。也会有软弱的一面
7.30pm
17-01-07
Wednesday
Wish me luck for FM quiz tomorrow... :-p haha
thanks!
7:13:00 PM