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Saturday, March 24, 2007

u look quite shocked ar ? ha!

Pictures taken in school during practise before performance... :-p

I must say we are quite bo liao actually ha! :-p

Instead of practising we are actually slacking away taking pictures... ha!
but lao shi is not around... shhhhhhh lol ..haha!

Other matters....

From my recent experience, i further understood that there are many types of people in this world... even in my midst...

Hypocritical people who purposely tried to showcase what they have got juz to put others down... actually perhaps it's may be a sign of insecurity....but to be honest... when i'm given this chance i juz go about doing it despite the low benefits that came together with it....I really am juz doing what i like.... i definitely have no ill intentions to snatch anything away from anybody....I did it mainly for the experience....Well, There is no need to put on an act ...to prove that u r better than me... coz i know u r ...coz of ur experience.... i'm not having a competition with anyone.... I'm new in this... it juz helps to diminish the last bit of confidence i have...

Another related issue, I'm afraid i wont be able to handle everything on my own when u are not around.... i wanted ur company badly... seek ur support endlessly...

I was extremely glad to have u present throughout everything last night....honestly i really appreciate it... I really should not lose my temper on u..i have no idea what's gotten over me... perhaps the hope is already there... i imagined everything... so i was kinda disappointed when it didnt come true... i didnt know how to handle it so i juz lost my temper... so typical of me...maybe i was too overwhelmed by all the negative emotions i had throughout yesterday night towards that matter... so i flare up for the slightest reasons...

It's so weird... when i dun have the thing... i wanted it... when i finally have it i'm not ready to face with all the problems that come together with it....

The night before...i felt upset ...coz i knew u were unhappy... i was lost... i begin to think of which decision to make... should i ? or should i not? there are pros and cons in each decision made.. i told u last night....I guess i will leave everything to u... that will be the best decision....

如果不来，我会感到无助，失落。。少了一个我可以依赖的肩膀。。。多了一份不安的心情。。。。也少了一份安全感

如果来，又似乎对你不太公平。。。你或许也会不开心。。

所以因此被困在左右为难的情况当中。。。最后还是决定由你来决定你要或不要来。。

我必须不断提醒着自己你没来的可能性。。提醒自己别把希望抬得太高。。。就是为了要避免往后的失望。。。

我讨厌失望的感觉。。因为不好受。。

*acceptance is still key for everything to be a success....*

*I guess i will juz try my best... and hope for the best... ..tt's all i can do now.. practise practise, practise..... *

*My guitar string snapped again... but it's not my fault this time round... an expert made it snap.. guess who? Lao shi lo who else? lol....hA!*

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