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Saturday, March 10, 2007

My darling...posing

I was in fact fuming yesterday.... got played out by a friend of mine....sighz.. forget it.... I should forgive and forget... I should believe it was not a deliberate act to get back to me or something....coz she appears to have changed... and was nicer than before.....i guess it was juz over-sensitivity on my part... I've always been paranoid..

Well... after which i was in guitar school... I feel so sian throughout.... if it's not for u i would not even turn up... I dunno partly coz of that incident.. another part is i have not been learning anything new for the past weeks.... I think it's time for me to either quit or switch to individual...
It's hard to concentrate on a student in a group i guess.... but then again i do not really have the luxury to choose what class to sign up for due to cash flow problems..... so i might end up juz quitting then maybe ...come back when i have the cash again?... Nobody knows what's gonna happen in the future.....

I was basically feeling not too good coz of this yesterday night..... another reason will be ... It's really been a long time since i last performed...ya so wat if i'm tired of waiting... still got to cont waiting... it used to be something i look forward to weekly but now.. things changed...it should be okie..coz it's been ongoing for so long le.... actually i have already longed gotten used to it.... juz felt like complaining....maybe because the passion for performing is not completely dead yet.... haha....

Waiting ..............................

*I was grateful to have u around with me yesterday though..... otherwise it would have been worse....*

I think i'm having pms... coz i've been rather negative lately ...and i constantly needed someone's company i dun wanna be alone.....

A simple last minute switch in the plan of going singing instead of watching movie which was decided long ago....

I begin to let my crazy mind wander...... many crazy negative things.... Reasons to my disappointment ....

1. Cash shortage problem...
2. perhaps i already went singing earlier on this week and now i'm going another time this week...
3. perhaps i never watch a movie for soooooo long......long until i do not have a specific movie to watch.. juz plainly Wan to watch... ha!..
4. perhaps i have been looking forward to watching movie today .......
5. perhaps the movie plan was decided quite some time ago....

I was pretty shocked myself when i actually preferred movie than singing .. the first time in my life i chosen anything over singing.... ha! I actually felt a tinge of disappointment after i learnt about the change in plan from movie to singing...

Due to the above "perhaps reasons" i guess to experience a certain level of disappointment was understandable.... ha!

Maybe it's not completely coz of the movie....

也许，因为只想要和你单独相处。。对我而言，这是珍贵的。。。。我不想浪费

你在还没有搞清楚我愿不愿意之前，就已经决定好了。。

ya.. anyway after rattling on for so long ya... i'm still going singing later on...I dun wish to be a spoil sport...

下次再看吧.....

Okie gtg...

12:21:00 PM