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Monday, July 30, 2007

Presentations are finally over! but i still got a whole lot of reflections to complete...and a stupid music test on Saturday. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!! After everything, here comes the exams! sighs....

I'm still waiting for my throat to fully recover so that I can eat my favourite chocolates soon... i am craving for something sweet..... some chocolatety stuffs....chocolates are the best food ever created!!!

He look so cute!

Love him the most! :-p

Jay chou Rocks!

*I cant wait to watch his new movie, hopefully i can watch it with u....*

*The warmth of a hug is more than words can describe...........The feeling is definitely worth a million words.....*

*Still not getting enuff of ur hugs and kisses.... *

7:19:00 PM

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Haven't fully recover..

but i'm still on my way .....

The delay in recovery should be caused by my irregular intake of my medicine.. as the medication caused me drowsiness.. and the project deadlines requires me to be alert i did not take the medicine regularly.. hence, recovery is delayed.... furthermore, i often always forget when it's time to take medicine..... blame it on my forgetfulness too.....

I hate it most when i sound like shit when i sing with a blocked nose and a sore throat :-(

One more presentation to go on Monday...

I'm the type of presenter who cannot live without cue cards.. in other words a lousy presenter haha!

Haven't been sleeping properly for the past 2 weeks......

Been having pms for the past days too... that explains the temperamental moods experienced by me....the insecurities that clouds my mind...the inexplicable sudden surge of negative thoughts that often pollutes my mind.... it's indeed not easy to overcome.. trying though... Seeking ur understanding...and more care and concern...

*Thks for the hp pouch... I love it, pleasant surprise...*

*Meeting u gradually becomes a form of luxury...... as work overtakes everything....
:-x

* Presence is Precious, it becomes even more precious when a person feels unwell..*

*Ur Presence together with endless hugs and kisses could juz be the best form of medicine to speed up recovery..*

*Looking forward to more hugs and kisses.... *

Still Not Getting Enough..............

10:17:00 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

i feel really unwell...

:-(

the difference in timing has caused me to be upset....

why be sick at the wrong time?

but i can do nothing..

sure...

understanding is key..

but easier said than done..

still trying very hard....

I'm sick and tired...

Everybody's busy...

Nobody's got time...

Being sick is terrible....

:-(

If only u can be by my side

I can only say if only...

:-(

It's a pity circumstances dun allow

10:33:00 AM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I'm officially down with a flu and a sore throat today....

I Have:

a Non-stop running nose...

a throat that hurts...

a throat that feels sticky, sore with phlegm...

a headache that's irritating me

it sucks...:-x

Being sick sucks...

:-(

and what's worse for me is there is a presentation tomorrow...

and 2 more projects to rush all the way till next week....

means i have to stay up late for all the subsequent nights ahead ...

:-(

Will Anyone Nurse me back to health?

Everyone's buzi...including u

I doubt so..

Juz felt very sucky with all the flu symptoms....

sighz...

:-(

12:58:00 AM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Words to describe today.. No energy.... restless.....Tiredness

This is the result of having 2 and a half hours sleep the night before...

but I am not the only zombie, there are a few other more, but 2 more prominent ones...ha!
One slow motion person by the name of "Fruitty".... and the other who suffer from "serious brain disorder" by the name of "Minty".... haha...

Being able to sleep in peace is a form of happiness...

We Know it best!!!

We can fall asleep anywhere today.... at any place.. ha!

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However, Evening time was pleasant due to ur presence......4 hours passed so quickly with juz a blink of eyes....it feels like 4 minutes...it livens me up, i was orginally feeling like half-dead..

Ur company makes a drastic difference to my mood ...... the 4 hours was well-spent...
With u around, it requires less effort to smile.... to laugh....

anyway juz one last reminder to the most blur person of all,
(u know who u r)

it is Canadian Pizza... not California Pizza....

hahahahaha :-p

It's really funny

U made my day...

If only this can happen everytime.....

Waiting again for ur return...

Hope u enjoyed urself as much as I do today...

did ya?

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Tomorrow back to the projects again........

*sianZ*

My throat feels dry and slightly sore for the whole of today... i think it is the result of the late nights and the intake of heaty food....hope that my throat can return to normal asap....

*sighz...*

Mentally prepared for another long day ahead...

:-x
These days, I have been having cravings of drinking sweet sweet honey.......

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*Still in the process of learning the art of contentment.... the art of appreciation .... *

*It's not gonna be easy....*

11:20:00 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007

Realise:

"I realise that to obtain one thing means sacrificing another thing precious"

I realise that when I wan something I muz be prepared to sacrifice another thing equally precious to me....

If I choose to want this, I must accept having less time with someone

At times like this, Life can be a difficult chore........

no matter the decision, the outcome will remain the same......

ntg changes....

It's not within anyone's control...

In life, many things aren't within our control.....

therefore,

Acceptance is the key....

"At the moment, any chances of being physically present together in the same place, at the same time becomes a form of luxury....becomes something precious..."

"Things only become precious, when u can't get it easily...., things that are not easy to get, are those that are most precious....."

"When u have no control over something, that's when acceptance is the only way out... it's not a matter of choice, it is the only option..."

"The Appreciation of togetherness will naturally build up, as the longingness to see someone increases as days goes by..."

:-(

12:29:00 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Projects- It is indeed A Pain in the Neck...

Stressed due to the time constraint, Anxiety of the inability
to produce work with quality within the timeline.....tired......causes
headaches....

Pms - Insecure feelings, moody... depressed....temperamental......Down....

Life isnt a bed of roses right from the start...........

Humans juz gotta live with it no matter wat.... like it or not, the world continues to go round....

"I learnt that getting one thing means sacrificing another thing precious"
even in accounts we learnt about opportunity cost... guess it is applicable to real life situations as well....

Most of the time,

I never get what I want...

what I hope for

what I wish for

they always seemed so distant......

so far and unreachable....

Close to the impossible...

1:07:00 AM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

After many many posts in chinese.... i decided to write this one in english...upon a few request on and off.. ha!

Yesterday night was happily spent, we were both laughing like 2 idiots... but ur the bigger one ha!... It was a pleasant break from all the project stress, it relaxes my mind temporarily...and i am looking forward to the next pleasant "break" with u....:-p Hopefully, that shall be the next time i see u ...

I have spent almost the entire day doing nothing but projects....a bit of side tracking here and there.. but nonetheless i have been staring at the pc, spending majority of my time on project. This is the peak project submission period... and i hated this period of time apart from the exam period which is also coming soon..... right after all the project fever.. :-(

I decided to take a bit of time off to write this post... to get my mind temporarily off all these projects. Projects Sucks... :-x Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr i bet everyone going thru this think so too... ha!

Project spells stress...

Stress spells headaches....

and I'm having a major headache right now.. :-(

My eyes are dry and sore of all the staring at the pc... :-x

Perhaps, it is the constraint of time experienced now, owing to procrastination?!

"Getting things done is everyone's top priority at the moment, ntg else matters as much.."

*I need ur help again to help me de-stress.....to tone down my stressful levels**

*Amazingly, your attempts to make me smile always works....*

*Hope that u can bear with my temperamental mood swings for the time being...*

12:01:00 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

人往往要等到生病后，才能真正体会到身体健康的可贵。。。
所以我要提醒我身边的好友，和每一个我关心的人，都要照顾好自己的身体。。。把每一天过得开开心心的。。。

近日，我爱上了购物，买东西是一种享受。。。能拥有喜欢的东西是一种幸福，但我不爱一个人购物的感觉。。。一个人会寂寞。。。有人陪我一起购物的感觉最快乐。。。

想要的东西永远买不完。。。可以说是无止禁的
赚钱难，花钱容易。。。

辛辛苦苦用精力和时间换回来的钱，可以在短短的时间内花光。。。

但如果花在值得的东西上，相信这也不算是一种浪费的举动吧！

开心就好。。。

*依然好爱被拥抱的感觉，对我而言，永远不会嫌多，拥抱永远都不够。。。*

*现在，好想尽快的拥有林俊杰的最新专辑。。。期待已久！。。希望能快快拥有他改版后的专辑。。。*

我爱俊杰！！！

7:09:00 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007

连续又吐又泄。。。发烧，肚子涨。。
还得打针。。。吃药。。
导致测验被逼延后。。。我最讨厌延后测验，但昨天尽管我怎么强逼自己要吸收快一点，越逼就越辛苦，最后什么也没学到就回家了。。
倒霉的我，偏偏要在这两天食物中毒。

生病时，连平时看似简单的小事；如走路，洗澡，都感觉好难。。。

*昨日，最渴望的是一个关心的拥抱，可惜没办法得到。。。:-(
生病实在很难受。。。*
:-(

*发现原来生病时候的我，可以那么脆弱。。。那么需要人陪。。。*

7:04:00 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

当以为一切风平浪静的时候，总会发生一些我不愿意发生的不愉快事件。。。只能说被夹在中间的感觉，我了解。。。也不好受。。

想说的是我和从前一样，我没有改变。。。还是和以往一样需要你的陪伴。。。。但因为深怕为了陪我，会为你带来困扰和不愉快。。。那我宁愿拒绝这个陪伴，尽管心里有多么想。。。我也不要。。但可惜，你却因此误会让你当真以为我不再象从前那么需要你的陪伴。。。。事实上，根本没那回事。。。

我虽然没认真的提过，但我都有问。。。有帮你争取。。。但事情都没有如我所愿。。。我也被受控制。。。我没有权力，我无能为力。。。
我就是因为非常了解你的失落感，所以也不断在背后为你说话。。。。帮你问，我没有亲口对你说，并不代表我没有做。。。

我是真的想帮你。。。。我一直在努力。。。。一直都站在你这边。。。我以为你都会懂。。。但从你刚才的语气说明你对我的怀疑。。。你质问的语气。。。。你怀疑我把你遗忘。。。怀疑我没有帮你，你的怀疑让我不开心。。。。难过

事实上，我没有。。。我真的没有。。。。从来没有。。。

天啊！当我没有的时候我又愁，又不开心。。。不满足，但当我终于盼到等到的时候，另外一个问题就出现了。。又要愁了。。。。

一定又是我处理得不妥。。。我也不会。。。不懂。。。
我还以为这次处理的很好。。。并没有
我也不得不承认自己每次面对问题就笨到不行。。。。

我是在发牢骚。。。。可以选择不理会。。。没事。。。。没事

*但我心里还是希望在每一个演出能看到你的出现。。。知道不容易，也辛苦你了，但我还是会不断希望你愿意和我一起分享我的快乐，那会是我最大的幸福。。。如果不能和你分享我的快乐，那快乐就不会完整了。。。*

1:10:00 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

想想既然“等待” 这两个字常常的出现在这里。。。就不如让“等待”这首歌来表达我的无奈吧。。。从前的我，从来也不觉得等待有什么大不了，一直到近来的这些日子我才真正体会到，等待的漫长，等待的无奈。。。

整个晚上都在等待，夜夜的等待, 我拒绝沉睡。。。或者应该说，我无法完完全全安心入睡吧。。。我每个晚上就在这里，一个人孤独的发呆。。。

我只是一个傻瓜
为你把力气用光的傻瓜

我依然还在等待
等待你会明白
一颗坚强的心
依然在等你回来

风在吹，就让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓
我承认自己累
但我坚持要守护着我们的承诺
要陪你一起累
不怕累，
只要你愿意一直在我的身边陪着我
守护着我。。。
只要我的身边有你陪。。。。

*只有时间能证明你是否真的了解我想要的是什么。。。我日夜期盼的是什么。。。希望你不要再忘记了。。。。* :-(

我会一直傻傻的在这里等待着。。。

等待一个只有你能给我的改变。。。

9:39:00 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

有人说，这里写的一切，总是那么的灰暗。。。其实我也没有刻意写成这样，其实我只不过是想发泄自己一些不开心的情绪而已。。。。

最近，发觉“等待”这两个字，常常出现在这里。。。
没办法，我就只会这样做。。。或应该说我只能这样做。。。
还是一样，没有改变，每次有机会见面，你还是一样得匆匆忙忙的离开。。。

或许你永远也很难体会到亲密举动对我的重要性吧。。。这些都需要我费尽唇舌不断提醒，要求才会有吧。。。
好累的。。 :-x 你会懂吗？

*又要继续等待了。。。

等待永远是漫长的。。。*

10:52:00 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

心不在焉
爱耍脾气
孩子气
没耐性
爱胡思乱想
幼稚
冲动
固执
无聊
罗嗦

把这些全部加起来，就等于一个我了。。。

那就是我

对吗？

不知道在你眼里的我会不会只值这些。。。。:-x

是不是呢？

6:15:00 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

又到了深夜，感觉眼皮有点沉重。。。已经是凌晨了，我还迟迟不肯入睡。。。现在是七月一日了。。。我也不知道还得等到什么时候。。。八月吗？或九月我也不会排除有任何的可能性。。。因为你的答案永远都是那么不确定。。。不清楚。。。不知道。。。

每晚我仿佛和你一起加班。。虽然我们都处在不同的地点，但至少我能和你一起清醒着。那么至少累也有人陪你一起累。。。
至少你会感觉到你不是一个人。。。至少也能知道有人一直在担心你的安全，为你着急着。。。

嘴里头的痔疮好痛，今天开始不喜欢吃东西。。。因为当食物磨擦到痔疮时，真是让我疼痛不堪，真的是超级无敌痛！！！痛得连吃东西的速度都变得好慢。。。真糟！！！

我突然想念着你星期五的一举一动。。。那些让我感觉又开心，又窝心，又温暖。。。又有被呵护的感觉的一举一动。。。我都想念。。。
希望每次见到你的时候，你都能做到那些一举一动。。。。

*一个拥抱胜过于一万个字，一个温馨举动胜过于一万个字。。。一个惊喜能换回真挚的灿烂笑容。。。关心放在心里固然没错，但在适当的时候，把真心关心对方的话说出来也不见得是坏事，反而会更加好。。更能增进彼此之间的感情。。。**

*More words and actions will make me feel so alive.....*

1:17:00 AM