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Thursday, September 13, 2007

These days i have been continuously feeling insecure...

Something seemed to be missing..

On the surface, everything remains fine...

maybe it lies within me...

the insecurities acting up......

I tend to read into many things...a simple sentence said without much consideration, an action done without much thought... is already enough to set me thinking bout the difference between the past and present....

Is the sense of urgency gradually going down....as time goes by....or is it juz plain tiredness due to some form of medication?

Unconciously thinking...

Down.....:-(

*A constant need for assurance....*

Moving on to Sip matters, my actual sip starts on children's day.... at the moment it was juz training.... been on duck tours, the DHL Hot-air balloon today....and have had a lot of information on Singapore's heritage... Too much information i guess... i couldnt really abosrb all....

Have longed wanted to try the duck tours and the DHL hot-air balloon...It should be a happy and exciting trip.... but today i found out that the company u are with is more impt then the type of activity carried out...

Today, i felt like an outcast all the way right from the start.....though, i had small talks with almost everyone in the group....perhaps , not too close with them, felt a sort of invisible barrier btw me and them... not totally at ease i guess... besides, the groups is further splitted into small cliques here and there, so for most of the time it's kinda hard and weird to force urself into their little grps ... so for most of the time i rather choose to remain silent....

So i realised that if I'm with a group of friends that i feel totally comfortable and happy with..... it doesn't matter what activity ur doing, even if it's doing projects.. I'm happier ...

Thus, to me, the company of friends I'm with together to complete any activity is the determining factor to which how much i enjoy the activity... not the activity itself...

Oh how much i missed all my dearest friends...

Without them, Duck tours and DHL balloon seems incomparable with simple window shopping, slacking around on the streets and cycling at east coast park....

Okie end of my lonely excursion encounter..juz hope that tomorrow's outing training session will be better....

I hope all my dearest friends passed their exams well and are enjoying themselves on their attachment at the moment.....

They shld know who they are so needless to mention any names...

*一些适当的话。。。温馨的话。。。让人感动的话。。。。温馨举动，还是非常重要的。。。*

*一个人无论多么有自信，还是需要对方的肯定。。。这可以用简单的话，温馨举动来表达。。让人增进安全感。。。*

有没有治好空虚，没有安全感的药呢。。。若有我第一个去买。。。

我真希望不安，不开心的感觉能快快解除。。。。
一切能够象从前一样美好

对于这一切，你又了解多少，表面的敷衍存在过吗。。。

5:33:00 PM