Thursday, November 29, 2007
E-journal 3 finally done... taxi vouchers' information submitted...
Left with the submission of the time sheet..
My Pms moods are kicking in these few days .. that's why i've been feeling quite moody these days....
The shifts are tiring indeed i nearly collapsed on Tuesday coz of the 5am shift... :-x
could hardly open my eyes on that day.... it's not something controllable...
It will be heaven if i could plan my own roster.. plan myself when to work opening or closing or mid shifts.. when to collect my in-lieu hours without too much of trouble..
Now got an upcoming project for interns.... shucks... hated projects... and some more having to do project with this sucky working schedule. ... even less time to sleep le !
:-x Shit!
人始终还是人不是机器。。。体力有限。。。拥有着自己的情绪。。。无论我怎么勉强对自己说我可以，但到最后仍然感觉好辛苦。。。
对我来说，累是无所谓，但重要的是累得值不值得。。
因为在自己累得快支撑不住的时候，总会不由自主的反复问自己为什么把时间表换得令自己那么累呢？
而这个简单的原因就已足够给我支撑下去的动力和坚持下去的力量。。。
每当想起那原因，心中就会有所期待。。。那时间也就容易过些。。。
那你会知道，看到我的坚持，努力吗？
接下来，我还会更忙。。。。
希望能得到你多一些的关心，照顾，爱护，支持和你的鼓励。。。。
因为，对我来说很重要。。
4:57:00 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
Yes, it's me again... juz when i've sorta gotten used to the afternoon shifts here.. tomorrow working the 545am shift again... it's hard to sleep when u have gotten used to sleeping late coz of working afternoon shifts for the entire week..so i will probably end up being very tired tomorrow... i have a feeling i cant sleep again tonight...
To be honest, i sometimes admire those with the 9 to 5 working hour shift...coz there's like no choice to choose from everyone working the same shift, no need to fight for the shifts... well at least there will be no form of unhappiness when u do not get the requested shifts u requested for...Ever since i started work , i have been quite frustrated with the roster...reason is simple...
firstly, If u requested for too many days, tongues will definitely wag behind your back or even straight to ur face, if u do not request, that's it.. juz slog and dun complain.. u juz have to deal with the consequence of not being able to go to places u wanna go, not being able to meet the people u wanna meet when their schedules dun meet with yours..
Therefore, i switched schedules with colleagues when the schedules i requested was not given.. but then again, some pple will be unhappy again and start to say:" why u like everytime got new roster u will change here change there de.." precisely , i also dun wan to go through all the trouble of changing schedules with pple , or in certain cases beg pple to change with me...changing schedules with people is not fun, first u have to persuade the colleague who u wanna change schedule with, sometimes, some form of pleading and begging is required. after they finally agree, u have to call the other 3 counters to make changes... some colleagues wil think u are such a bother , change this and that, wasting their time to help u change...
I also don't like , but the thing is if i dun change i will not be able to get on with what i wanna do... coz there are like so many request from different colleagues, it's impossible to get all my requests granted... so the remaining requests not granted u juz have to earn it yourself...
I personally think that as long as it doesn't affect the working environment in any way ... it doesnt matter if pple change a not..as long as both parties agreed on it..
pple change precisely it's coz their requests are not granted... otherwise, it is obviously dumb to change for the sake of changing right?
The one who plan the roster will definitely put her/himself in the top priority, it's unavoidable and totally understandable.. so small fry, employees like us juz have to earn back the schedules we wan , by switching amongst ourselves..
how come he/she can have the ideal schedule he/she set for himself....how come we can't? juz coz we are small frys? so he/she really shouldnt complain when we change schedules with our colleagues, so called "messing up" the schedule... when he/she cant grant our requests...we are only trying hard to make our lives happier.. if his/her life is not all about work, then it also applies to ours too...
Sometimes, it's tough when no one wans to change with u.... those who are willing have clashing schedules with ur own previous night shift...for example... u previously requested to work mornings on fridays due to lessons... but the roster planner gave u the opposite means u work night shift, so u wanna change to morning shift on Friday, but u work night shift till 215am on the previous night.(thurday) and no one wans to change with u .. so in the end coz of the result of not having ur request granted, u have to sacrifice sleeping hours.. left with no choice unless u wanna forgo the lesson...
But even if it means sacrificing sleeping hours .. i dun actually mind as long as i get to meet who i wanna meet..
Next week, gotta send in request again... it will surely not be all granted, so when the new roster come out, it's another headache to think of ways to change, and with who to change it with....
sometimes , i rather there's like no choice for us to choose from....
when planning the roster, the roster planner gets a headache. when the roster is finally out, the employees get a headache when request are not granted.........
我正期待着生活可以有一些小惊喜, 能够让我弯起嘴角，露出微笑的惊喜。。。
那该有多好。。。
2:27:00 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007
世上有好多事情，不是只要喜欢就一定能把它做得好。。。旦靠喜欢是不足够的，旦靠有兴趣是没有用的。要靠努力让自己更好，但努力也不一定会有结果。。 。左盼右盼，也只盼着一个机会。。。 不然再多努力也是白费的。。。一个多能干的人，还是需要一个能发觉他的才能的人，能够给他机会的人。。。
其实，世上几千万的人，无论什么事业，无论什么兴趣，也欠缺一个机会，也同样正等待着一个机会。。。机会不是必然的，并不是只要有耐心就一定会等到。。有可能花了一辈子的时间也一样等不到，这个机会。。。一个能让人发光发亮，一个能让人出位的机会有可能永远不会有。
我不也在等待一个机会。。。
愿望也需要机会来实现。。。
哪里有彩虹告诉我，能不能把我的愿望还给我？
没有地球太阳还是会绕。。。太阳不会因为一个人的不快乐而放假。。。
发现一个人大部分的时间都用在等待。。。
感觉生活少了一些些的小惊喜。。。每天不断重复做着一样的事情，过着一样的生活。。。没惊喜，没有改变。。
想和你做的事情，想和你去的地方，你也没办法配合。。。能够见面已经是值得庆祝了。。。
也许，这就是现实生活最真实的模样。。。
我还是会不断期待着，能够带给我快乐的, 惊喜，呵护和无限的关怀。。。
生活消耗了你的时间。。。
能够得到陪伴是一种美。。。
思念就象苦药。。。
11:35:00 PM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
It's been s0me time since i wrote something here... corny start-up line.. ha! Work has been fine... a few sucky experiences here and there... some sucky pple... there are plenty everywhere... Felt tiring mostly due to the working shift hours.. extreme for someone like me or perhaps everyone for the 545am shifts...
Work aside, I also experienced some frustration and disappointment..coz of my guitar skills...i cant seem to play the particular method in a perfect manner... sighz... suddenly felt a sense of despair during lesson yesterday... it's the feeling of frustration towards myself... another down part about yesterday was; i didnt get the chance to perform yesterday night :-x... I thought there will be a one song chance... but sadly there isn't...
Got my toe hurt the other day by some inconsiderate person in the MRT... now my toe nail colour is very ugly... purplish .....bruise colour ...
I figured out the chords for 3 of Jay chou's new songs from his long awaited new album....I havent even get the album and i already figured out the chords and learnt how to sing it .. nope i didnt download... i listened it through YouTube...
But i will get the album somehow... I want the album ASAP !!! I Wan! I WAN! I WAN!
哪里有彩虹告诉我？能不能把我的愿望还给我？
其实我的要求并不高，只想拥有一首歌的时间。。。只希望能借用一首歌的时间来换取自己小小的满足感。。。
总觉得只要有人愿意听。。就已经足够让我好开心。。。
怀念着过去，一切的一切。。。。现在与你见面的时间都缩短了。。。相处时间比起从前也少了。。。 适不适应是一回事，喜不喜欢是另外一回事。。。不喜欢或喜欢。。。结果还是不会有改变。。。 是生活的变化。。。别无选择
但仍然会想念着。。。
一些感想吧。。。
最近，好想吃巧克力。。。甜甜的。。总觉得甜食会让人心情好一些。。。可能是我个人的感觉吧！ 不管。。。
我爱巧克力！ 巧克力万岁！
12:36:00 AM
Friday, November 02, 2007
Since when did life become such a chore?
Why?
let this be the shortest post ever...
nothing's going on smooth ...
:-(
10:32:00 AM
