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Wednesday, April 30, 2008


My recent indulgence:
Have a break Have a Kit Kat...
Yes, People living in our society really need a break
a break from the complicated world...

including me..

Recently, been eating quite a number of this.. For supper during late night shifts.. for breakfast during early morning shifts at around 6am, the moment i settle down.. lol
I guess sweet stuffs sure makes me happier...
Love chocolates.. :-p

I spotted a strawberry flavoured Kit Kat.. at Candy Empire.. but it's double the price of the usual Kit Kat ... Its 3 dollars....mmmm pretty ex for a choc... but its special..
Hope to try it out soon! @_@


Today's special, it's a pity that u cannot be physically present once again...

冷漠社会

这世界很复杂
充满着
复杂的表面话
虚假的面具

是否晓得美好关系
背后的真正目的?
表扬话背后的
真正意义?
虚假的友谊关系
背后的目的?
还是现代人
为了利益
所训练出来的
一流高水准的
八届功夫?

我不懂
或许,
是我一点
也不想懂

在现代社会
已是见怪不怪
一点也不稀奇

这世界就是这样
复杂的声音
不断环绕在耳边
就像是挥之不去
烦人的噪音

人前人后
两个样
这个社会就是这样
由不得谁来操控
没时间停下脚步
没时间好好回味
回味从前童年生活
的点点滴滴

社会不容许
不容许我们
卸下破坏
单纯本性的面具

社会不容许
不容许
我们做真正的自己

这个残酷社会
常常让人
不知不觉的迷失
真正的自己

不受社会的影响
是在自欺欺人
这就是现实
也是成长的代价
谁也摆脱不来


在人前我不想做戏
更不想看别人演戏
不过想卸下面具
没有顾忌
做真正的自己而已

想说的是
成年人们
所营造出来的复杂世界
我实在一点也不想参与

成长让我被迫
承受无形压力
压得我喘不过气
压得我就快止息

真的好累...

有心无力
只因为我能力有限
但愿你会懂

我真的一点也不想长大

一点也不想参与

这冷漠社会的无聊游戏
。。


10:09:00 PM



Sunday, April 27, 2008




凌晨三点零八分
清醒着的我
明明很想睡
却怎么也无法入睡

头晕目眩
却还是醒着

是是是
又要说是想太多了吗?
胡思乱想的空间还不都是你给我的?

对对对
你说得都对,
你需要的是时间去改变而已

期待的改变
我会再等待
时间可以证明一切
要等到什么时候
何必过于执着
只因为我一点
也不想妥协
你的快乐

天天对着电脑
发牢骚
的确好无趣

一个人时,
天天爱和狗狗说话
有空爱和电脑说话
在心里与自己对话
工作时,
强迫自己与陌生人说话
有空就与同事说说笑话
看到友人就又再说笑话
偶尔,说说心里话
然后期盼能够减轻牵挂

一天过一天。。。

我就是那么无聊
无聊透
这就是我的生活。


3:46:00 AM



Friday, April 25, 2008


The Emo Side of Bambi...
Once again,
Glad to see you..

肺腑之言I

尽管关系再暧昧
也希望表达能够
多一些
也希望言语能够
甜蜜些
也希望举动能够
明显些

希望说的一切
能够得到了解

希望能延续
那一晚的感动。。。

肺腑之言II

告诉自己就算失落
就算会再一次难过
尽管要拖多久
尽管要等多久
我都不清楚
都强迫自己要忍受

但可曾想过
用功过了头
也会让身边人难受
是否想过,
那几句问候
也许对我来说不足够

你又有多久没来过
就算真的来过
下一次来又会是
什么时候

但如果因为我的难过
会让你难受
那我情愿继续沉默
一辈子沉默
努力说服自己沉默
也可以算是种沟通
忍住不说出口
忍住不让泪流

只愿意把难过
深藏在心里头
即使多难受
即使再难承受
也坚持不说

我坚持要默默
祈祷一切能快点过
要相信再不久后
这一切都会过
要说服自己浪漫
总有一天
也会包围在左右
要相信幸福日子
会实现在不久后

然后
相信自己可以度过
就算前方多艰苦
我都愿意陪你度过
只要你快乐就足够。。
Anticipation for the
next moment of togetherness..
Once again,
Your happiness matters..


12:04:00 AM



Thursday, April 24, 2008




This is one adorable doggie that i met when i was in Raffles place today.. One of the shop owner's pet. His name is Milo and he is juz so damn cute.. :-p


I thought he was a toy dog at first, until i saw his eyes blink.. and his wagging tail... lol :-p


before i saw all that..i really mistook it for a soft toy... I was lik thinking " mmmmm toy dogs nowadays really look so real...kids nowadays are so lucky." haha

More pictures of him... :-p
Camera shy

Looking at my camera at last... phew... :-p



One more close up shot... :-p "Er want some Milo???"
such a Cuteeeeeeeee !


But at the end of the day.. She's still the Best in my eyes :-p

Whether she's Bathing...
being Expressive .. (Barking) hee :-p

or Sleeping ....zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Whatever... still as cute.. :-p Love this picture of her... :-p so adorable..

I simply love dogs.. :-p they really have a way to melt my heart.. they are just so innocent and genuine... Qualities lacking in the actual world...No risks of plastic smiles and feelings in the doggie world..
Hence, they are the best gift that god has given us.. :-p


"Hello!"

This doggie is just some random pic i saw online, so decided to post it here :-p I find it so innocent and cute:-p

Despite having like around 9 hours of sleep .. I'm still sleepy, lerthargic... lack of energy...but Milo did helped to perk me up a little just now :-p


Brief and short 30 minutes session with you
As usual the meeting sessions
were rush and hectic

However,
Given the current complication of the relationship
The time was perhaps considered way too much to ask for?

Minutes and seconds raced past us

Is it just me, or is it the both of us?
That is constantly dissatisfied with the length of time
Fast and hasty as usual

Seemingly like Rush Hour
Rushing to and fro
Your have a never ending list of tasks to complete
It wasn't something new anyway

Nonetheless,
Your effort was deeply appreciated

Just secretly wished it could be Longer.......

Minutes Longer.. Seconds Extended....

Anyway,
Just wanna say,
Glad to see you ..










12:00:00 AM



Tuesday, April 22, 2008


幻想症:
一场梦


走在海滩
牵牵小手
不停地走
没有停留
骑完脚踏车的我们
筋疲力尽
却没有一丝累的痕迹
只是想专心
倾听彼此的呼吸

将内心最深处
的所有感受
轻声在耳边
说出口
让你能一同感受
我内心所有感受

没有顾虑
只有享受
享受风的放纵
专心倾听
大自然送给
我们的礼物

望着一望无际
的蓝蓝大海
单纯的谈着心
数数天上的星星
抬头期待有流星
好让我们默许愿望
好让愿望能够
全部成真

甜言蜜语
源源不断
在耳边打转
就像悦耳的音乐
只想不停播放
一辈子
也不想中断

努力的懒散
也是一种享受
什么都不用做
什么都不用说

彼此的存在
只想紧紧把握
只想静静享受
记得呼吸就够

要把一切
简单的浪漫
牢牢记住
想开口
求时间现在停留
停留在片刻就够

只不过,
可惜,
一切权属虚构
我只能
睁开双眼
然后重返
这个残酷的世界
面对真实的现实

因为以上的描述
全是虚假的
全部只是
一场美梦
梦得好真
多希望
梦想成真

我依依不舍
只能无奈地
向梦境告别
离开梦境
然后努力
阻止
我的幻想症
再发作
。。。


10:36:00 PM



Monday, April 21, 2008


要珍惜

天天十指紧扣
其实权属虚构
暧昧流动
只有你我懂
可曾想过
用功过了头
也会让身边人
感到非常难受
继续保留
选择全不说
沉默的沟通
也能算沟通
反正
说什么也嫌太多
只能选择
以后的以后再说

人生没有时间让你回头
时间也从来不为谁逗留
难道你真想静静地错过
继续一拖再拖
然后等到不可能回头
的时候
在强迫自己去承受
承受一个
自己不想要的结果

若因错过
感到困惑
又有何用
只能接受结果
让遗憾陪你度过
这样的生活是否好过?
何不活得快活,
停止再拖
别再软弱
将仅有的
每一分每一秒紧紧把握

至少当人生走到尽头
的时候
可以大声说出口
你的人生从来
没有白活过
。。。


你说我敏感多心
我只不过是在乎
一句:“疑神疑鬼”
让我的心
一瞬间
降到最低层
好难过
不好受
想想之前 为你
所做过的一切
泪水就不停流
感觉好委屈


了解你的累
所以我没有
责怪
只是心里还是
不好受

才发现,
原来我还是多么再意
你所说的每一句话

多问的用意
被你误解
误解成不信任
很抱歉
但那不是我的
用意

其实,
并不是不信任
只不过想多听听
一些所谓无聊的
甜言蜜语
把我那颗
百感交集的心
镇住而已


5:28:00 PM



Saturday, April 19, 2008


Reminisce
追忆

Missing the good old days badly
All of a sudden
Felt a tinge of longing
Longing for luxury of valued time shared,

the precious moments once shared
After all that has happened
After all that has been said and done
All the consistent compromising
All the persistent giving and taking


After all this time,
I realized that it’s the simple things that really matter
Small things that I used to overlook in the past
Something that used to be so ordinary,

so easily obtainable ....
Its the simple things in life we forget...
that means a great deal to me now
It all seemed so precious, and so unattainable now
So afar
Seems like it’s beyond our reach
Far from sight
Maybe not exactly impossible ..
But not as easily attainable as compared to the past
Maybe its just pure fear of losing the burning spark,

that had once burned so ferociously.

I used to take it for granted when I have the luxury of it
Perhaps, its just human nature
Those were the old days...
When time was spent lavishly without much thought...
When life was basically just filled up,

with nothing but plenty of exclusive private moments shared.

For the present moment,
All this seems near to impossible.
What’s left now is more of past playback scenes flashing across my mind

Yes, mostly reminiscing the old memories that was once shared
Only during moments like this, then I start to realize its importance
Importance that silly me had once carelessly overlooked


Insecurities tend to corrupt the composed mind with pessimistic thoughts
Finally,
It all boils down to the same fear…
Fear of losing that magic spark that used to burn so intensely…

Constant anticipation for better days ahead,
To compensate, to make up for the amount of time lost.
Pardon the intensity of emotions injected into every post

I’m just speaking from the bottom of my heart.





11:47:00 PM



Friday, April 18, 2008


活该

一句下一次我会
下一次会有机会
再让我们来约会
这些话听了前百回
渐渐像一个笑话
越说越可笑

下一个剧情
全都由你部署
我只能蠢蠢
守在一旁倒数
倒数着一个
无限期的承诺

你都不在
四个字
这段日子
反反复复
默背在心
埋藏在心

需要关怀
你都不在
我拼命忍耐
或许也让你
觉得
我不用依赖
不介意等待
所以拖拖拖
求你别再拖
好好去想想
难道我要的
真的那么难
还是根本没
用心想过

尽量去谅解
尽量去了解
想开口说话
又害怕大家
搞得不愉快

不过现在已看开
学习如何不依赖
反正说了又怎样
事情仍别来无恙
不舍得这样投降
所以静静地忍耐
蠢蠢地继续无奈
傻傻地继续等待

也许等待的过程中
会将距离
拉得越来越远

下一秒会发生的
无人晓得

只能说,
爱上你
算我活该
。。。


3:33:00 AM



Tuesday, April 15, 2008


A moment of silence

My tranquility needs absolute isolation
Without disturbances
Without disruptions
Without interruptions
Not even the one dearest to heart
Just me, myself and I
A sudden urge to protect the walls around my heart
At least for this moment
I dun wish to see them crumble and fall from any side
I dun wish for anyone to realize I’m actually that frail
No longer need to question no more
No longer stumbling aimlessly for a door
Not even a tinge of doubt
No longer questioning over your unrelenting absence
Persistent questioning shall stay in the past,
and not in the present

What’s left now is the
Mere enjoyment of serenity
For this split moment
My emotions freeze
I yearn so much to be at ease
To enjoy the silence from being alone
Without any form of pretence to shield the real me
Simply hiding from all the pretence in reality
My definition of loneliness
Being physically alone is not a form of loneliness
Having to face life alone emotionally is a form of loneliness

Still in search of the strength
The strength to heal, the strength to rejuvenate
The force to stay consistent with the change within me
The transition into the person I’m expected to be
It is a challenge,
an obstacle I’m seeking to overcome day after day
The smiles, the gentleness, the sweet embraces,
the surprises shall be
the most treasured prize
The treasured prize that I’m constantly fighting for…
The treasured prize that motivates me,
that gives me the strength to persevere.
So as to preserve the new me …

p/s: this is one english post that i suddenly felt like writing, as it's really been ages since my last post is in English...
and to also prove to tami, i not only read english books but i am also able to understand to a certain extent... haha lol :-p


2:12:00 PM



Friday, April 11, 2008


My fave kind of fruit? I love chocs....Thks :-p

快乐

快乐的来源
来自一个实现的心愿
或许很难理解
甚至可以说是一知半解
这份意想不到的惊喜
让我欢喜
它是多么难得
它是求之不得
它是相思的解药
最有效
最微妙
因为这样
所以让我染上了瘾
不由自主地又抱着
期待。。。

期待

不管事情如何对待
仍然一直有所期待
期待若一直存在
理想结果又不在
难免会带来伤害
期待该怎么取代
答案我仍在等待

。。。


10:26:00 PM



Tuesday, April 08, 2008


无奈

今日下着雨
我不想言语
我 不想堕落
我只想摆脱
摆脱所有能
让我难过的
理由

有好多话想说
可惜缺乏时间
借给我们来
相见

但可否知道
有时候的我
有多累
有多疲惫
只因不想带来压力
却又不想这样压抑

其实不想依赖
其实只想重来
但有时候的我
实在控制不过来
期待有一个他
能够这样明白
明白
我心里所有的无奈


8:59:00 PM



Monday, April 07, 2008


别拖

从你身上我看不见
百感交集的一颗心
因为你
我连自己都不再是
但你却拖拖拖
一拖再拖
请你别拖拖拖
要拖到什么时候

不想给你压力
却又不想压抑
。。。


3:47:00 PM



Friday, April 04, 2008


沉默

话都不说
继续沉默
沉默地请求
自己别软弱
就算再痛苦
都不说出口
反正要痛就
痛个快活
痛也
要保持沉默
因为
只有沉默能
换回那笑容
换回那温柔

要努力坚持
要相信自己
能够
继续这么做

要沉默地等待
要沉默地期待
期待下一次的
相遇
。。。


11:02:00 PM



Wednesday, April 02, 2008


突发奇想

心血来潮
把文字与音乐融合
把它变成一首歌曲
这不是第一次
也不会是最后一次

一首接一首的
就像是自己的孩子
就这样的诞生

原来平凡
微不足道
的一个我
也能够这样做

它代表着我
它说出内心
最深处的感受
它说出自己
说不出口的感受
没有理由
没有保留
就这样创造了它

虽然
不完美
有缺陷
但只要能
真实的表达自己
其实,
这样就足够


7:26:00 PM