*Both pictures taken from Google..
21 Feb 2009
Dilemma
“What are your 3 greatest achievements?”
I came across this question yesterday whilst I browse through one of the websites online. I sat in front of my Pc, moving my cursor up and down, Left and right, thinking hard, trying to figure out what to write for that particular portion. I was stumped. I cannot seem to find any suitable words fit to occupy that blank.
Is graduating from poly considered as an achievement, but I know that’s obviously not what they are looking for. That question on that website is mainly directed for Poly grads to answer.
Do I really have nothing to pen down? Or is it purely because I do not know how to put it down into words?
Having been around in this world for more than 2 decades, and I cannot seem to find an achievement that I’m really proud of to write down?
All of a sudden, I felt ashamed and worthless.
This question made up simply of 5 words, and a digit is enough to show me how incompetent I have been for all these years. It’s obviously sufficient to make me feel guilty enough to reproach myself. For a moment, nothing but rebuking thoughts consumed me. I begin to ask myself hypothetical questions, what if I was more active during my schooling years? Or what if I worked extra hard to get better grades. Will the outcome be different?
To be frank, I didn’t really achieve anything worth mentioning here.
For all these years, I have sailed through without any great aspirations except to at least graduate with a diploma.
Sports calibre? Obviously not, you can imagine me beaming with ultimate joy with just a borderline pass for 2.4km test back in Secondary school.
Culinary is hardly my forte too.. i rem how much my home economics teacher used to hate me to the core ..
I am neither of excellent academic material, nor am I possessed with any extraordinary abilities.
Maybe, that’s why I do not have any proud achievements that are worth mentioning let alone to flaunt.
Well, its high time I do some deep soul-searching. What’s the next step to take, where should I proceed from here? Is this what I really want? Do I just follow my interests and heart? Or do I choose something that what others think is best for me?
Caught in a dilemma ..
I felt as though I am standing at the crossroads, not knowing which way to go next.. which path should I take? is it left or right or do I just go straight?
Nobody wants to choose something they will regret in future.
But who can guarantee that the decision we make now will be the best for us?
If everyone's got the ability to make the right choice right from the start, then the word "regret" will not exist in the first place.
The worst thing about life is there’s no turning back in life, once its gone, its gone, there’s no such thing as the rewind button. Even if there's a chance to restart everything all over again, precious time is already wasted and it will not be the same anymore.
Once the decision is made, you stick with it, whether you like it a not.
Life can be such a pain at times..
Filled with too many difficult decisions to make....
Filled with too many unexpected twists n turns along the way...
Maybe if I am born smarter, this dilemma will not happen..
It's time for me to go through every option with caution..
and try to come out with a wise decision.. i have to somehow...
It's not a choice it's a must.. argh! :-x
