Wednesday, November 20, 2013
As usual, when I need to vent my frustrations I come here.
Political shit happens in office .. Every office no matter how few the number of people there are .. When there are humans .. Politics exist .. Just as simple as that .. Today's juz a very good illustration of the pot calling the kettle black .. Humans tend to go easy on themselves and judge others critically when in the eye of a third party it's actually the same behavior/action. Well, even if there's any form of unhappiness in between the office beings, work life continues as per normal and this is usually known as acting professionally. Ironically sad but true .. But politics happened everywhere, perhaps it's diff background and upbringing .. Everyone's diff , friction occurs .. And unhappiness follows .. Life still goes on .. If u take frequent mc or urgent leave ur considered and deemed as the unprofessional immature individual, if that happens .. And u happen to accidentally or deliberately offend anyone that appraise u, oh wells ...ur putting ur own monetary benefits at risk ..
However, in life we can never satisfy everyone .. No one is obliged to serve anyone and no one shld be accountable towards anyone's unhappiness or happiness. No one shld be responsible for anyone's happiness or unhappiness. Sadly, most adults don't act their age. Showing attitude to induce guilt is definitely not a sensible thing to do when a good work relationship is important within any working environment.
Guess everyone need to learn emotion management. Towards the more despicable external parties, I'm still learning , but towards people working with me in office, I believe I have better management of my own emotions.
So as long as ur working .. Anywhere .. Office or not .. There are humans right ?!
Be prepared for politics .. Sometimes Even if you stay neutral, politics will still find u .. That's how domineering and scary with what humans can create together !
Most of the time, there is no solution, so when there is no solution to a problem. What do we do? For a living, we face it , we try to deal with it, we force ourselves to learn to live with it, whether or not we like its existence, we are left with not much choice , as we ironically are the ones who created it in the first place .. So tell me what rights have we to complain and whine?!
I think to move out of this place .. I need more strategic planning and more time to accumulate more money. Means as of now and the near future, I will still be somewhat physically stuck here. Due to financial and life commitments, it has taken away my right to just leave everything here for good.
It's partly work sometimes partly tired of dealing of any form of politics, isn't life already complicated enuff? Why do we all have to further complicate things?
The helpless one
11:14:00 PM
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Dear Diary,
It's Day 2 upon arrival on familiar grounds .. Still as depressed .. Had a dream last night of myself cycling around the city that looks like taipei .. Guess I think about it too much in the day .. It inflicts my dreams as well. Feeling not as positive as yesterday night, cos a generation of an idea itself is not definite, it's in fact impromptu, it could happen in an Instant, it could happen in a month or two , or even years or maybe never ever .. It's juz a sudden rash naive thought of getting out of Sg and getting out of the current lifestyle I'm leading .. I was impulsive .. Well, I guess it's best to leave certain things to fate and refrain from pinning too much hopes to avoid more disappointment ..
Fate and luck plays an important role .. That's what I always believed in .. But if given a chance I will never let it go .. A chance to live out of here .. A chance to change .. A chance to get away ..
Aside to Bambi, she needs diapers as she is unable to stand up by herself due to her weak legs .. I sleep in fear of hearing her whine at night .. I hope god can answer my prayers and heal her and let her be with me for a longer time ..
And oh I need to get used to my routine work life on Tuesday .. Thought of it irks me .. Having to face the nasty customers .. And irritating colleagues .. I need readjust my mindset back to the normal work mode and stop dreaming for a while .. And pray for an idea soon so that I can put my words into action .. The first step will be an idea , without it, words will only be words ..
Dear god, give me the inspiration to think of something impressive and grant me with the power to transform words into actions and dreams into reality ..
Oh wells .. Good night ..
The sad one
1:54:00 AM
I'm having really serious post tai pei blues, just left taipei and I'm already missing it, it's been so long since I last pen down all my thoughts.. Actually have got so much to say but the main topic here will be my trip to Taiwan .. The after effect mood of it all ..
I haven't gotten over the nasty feeling of touching down onto familiar grounds of Sg ..
I hope to set up business dere, I wanna follow my heart to what I've always wanted to do but didn't have enuff courage to do .. Now I'm sharing the same goal as u .. I hope we can do this together .. Step by step .. Towards a brighter future... I would love to call Taiwan our second home .. A place where our dream and goal can be fulfilled ..I know it's not gonna be easy .. But I'm gonna do whatever it takes to make it happen .. Instead of being sour and blue I might as well take action to venture into something that I always love .. I'm doing things step by step .. Hopefully as I go further everything will be clearer .. I believe we can make something out of this ..
Life is too short to keep doing something we hate
Last but not least I wanna Say again .. I love Taiwan !!
1:33:00 AM
