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Saturday, November 16, 2013

Dear Diary,
It's Day 2 upon arrival on familiar grounds .. Still as depressed .. Had a dream last night of myself cycling around the city that looks like taipei .. Guess I think about it too much in the day .. It inflicts my dreams as well. Feeling not as positive as yesterday night, cos a generation of an idea itself is not definite, it's in fact impromptu, it could happen in an Instant, it could happen in a month or two , or even years or maybe never ever .. It's juz a sudden rash naive thought of getting out of Sg and getting out of the current lifestyle I'm leading .. I was impulsive .. Well, I guess it's best to leave certain things to fate and refrain from pinning too much hopes to avoid more disappointment ..
Fate and luck plays an important role .. That's what I always believed in .. But if given a chance I will never let it go .. A chance to live out of here .. A chance to change .. A chance to get away ..

Aside to Bambi, she needs diapers as she is unable to stand up by herself due to her weak legs .. I sleep in fear of hearing her whine at night .. I hope god can answer my prayers and heal her and let her be with me for a longer time ..

And oh I need to get used to my routine work life on Tuesday .. Thought of it irks me .. Having to face the nasty customers .. And irritating colleagues .. I need readjust my mindset back to the normal work mode and stop dreaming for a while .. And pray for an idea soon so that I can put my words into action .. The first step will be an idea , without it, words will only be words ..

Dear god, give me the inspiration to think of something impressive and grant me with the power to transform words into actions and dreams into reality ..

Oh wells .. Good night ..

The sad one

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