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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Another hard day at school.... oh gosh..i need a break...let me proceed on to the activities that took place these days...On Monday... i had my Culinary science lesson asusual.. we finally cooked something.... i cooked roast chicken, boiled potatoes and carrots. I think it was edible it's juz that i forgot to put paprika on the chicken hence it turned out to be quite pale looking... but i wasnt too bad haha maybe it's coz i was hungry... i especially liked my boiled potatoes.... haha... hungry people find all food types tasty i guess..haha :-p The chef will check on us on and off.. to make sure we are doing the right thing.. one of them kept asking me if i was ok.... is everything ok ? etc... i guess i juz have that blur look on my face... it's mostly because i feel very tired.. i always ended up sleeping late on Sunday nights i wonder why...

On Tuesday, i had to wear formal again.. :-( sucks man.. then we had this tutor observation... of all days had to be yesterday... oh gosh juz when i was wearing the wrong shoes... i have been pretty obedient for the past 2 weeks with my formal wear.. even brought shoes to change..but she didnt conduct a check... and juz when i was slacking a little and decided to wear more comfy shoes for a change .. there was a check conducted... oh gosh what luck! Do u have any idea how hot it's lik to walk ard Sentosa with a formal blazor and uncomfortable shoes on? It totally sucks big time... hopefully i will get the hang of it soon...

On a lighter note... i met up with my old classmates.. Linda and Angeline (Mary) for dinner after lesson... my lesson ended early at around 5... we waited for Angeline until 6 then we went to the Seah im food centre for our dinner... we had fun reminscing on the past like e elderly haha.. and basically catching up with each other.. and mostly talking about crap... haha :-p it was fun though... toking to them again juz reminds me of last time in TP when we were still in the same class.. :-p can never turn back time though... and also cant change the fact that we are all in different classes... so juz have to live with it!....we chatted over dinner.. and i sort of forget that i got guitar lesson to attend at 7... we left at around 715... reach OB around 730... coz of the wating time for the train....as usual... sing and play guitar with the rest.. when i reached... quite fun... but still having problems trying to get the key right for a particular song....haha glad that lao shi finally helped me write the chords for the 2 songs i requested... :-p but still owe me one..I reached home around 10... did my marketing thingy on the com... was actually planning to go to bed.. it was already one... then received a msg from rina.. saying i have to hand in the first draft for Basic Entrepreneurship today.. oh gosh.. that really strucked me... i turned on my pc again and started doing all the way till 215... then toss and turn and have no idea what time i slept exactly yesterday... but i noe i was really tired today........I stayed in school till around 4 plus had a slight tummy ache..was suppose to wait for Angeline but i didnt so sorry girl... then headed for home.. n here i am now... sitting here writing this ..i was toking to one of my new classmates today at the bustop...and she totally agreed with me on the fact tt TP is better.. be it... the pple... the facilities..temp etc..it's not that pple at TAS is bad it's juz that everything seems black and white when not all ur close buddies are around.. that's what we implied... i mean if all ur closefriends all end up in the same class as u.. then studying in Sentosa wouldnt be that bad..coz only change in environment.. but not the pple... but now these two major factors have sort of changed drastically...

Pple might think it's lucky to study in Sentosa... coz Sentosa in people's perception is usually a fun and lively place... but it's really juz like any other school u can find everywhere only difference is it's ... located in a tourist attraction .. which only served to add on to the inconvenience of students.... (the 2 buses thingy)...seriously after these weeks... i've never been to any other part of Sentosa except for the school.... ok fine at most go to the SubWay located few stops away from school.... so if anyone think that We students of TAS know Sentosa inside out.. then think again... we are probably not... coz our favourite colour is Blue... as wear e forced to take the BLUE LINE almost everyday of our lives for a freaking one year.... haha

If u suggest me to go and visit other parts of Sentosa during the breaks.. then i will tell u it's technically impossible because all my breaks are one hour breaks..i will be happy enuff to have sufficient time to eat outside of TAS (Students who study there shld noe why).. in juz one short hour.... and if u suggest i go after school then maybe not.. coz usually so tired everyday after school juz wanna head home to rest.. furthermore.. the projects and assignments are sort of killing me softly... the workload is so much heavier than in year one... shucks............

I must learn the art of taking it easy.... but sometimes i feel so helpless and breathless.. coz i'm always like the last to know about deadlines and everything.... can't blame it on anyone else except for myself... i admit i'm careless... i need a guardian angel in school to help me along the way.... ok fine .. i noe it's wishful thinking , there will never be someone who will really care for u, ur work and projects unconditionally... but i've had this thought ever since i came to poly... because it's more independent learning.. the tutors here dun care whether u submit or not... it's ur choice... tt's why i always had this secret thinking to find someone who will help me along the way... reminding me of deadlines... help me with projects.... guide me.. provide me with advice... etc.. but it's not possible.... everyone has got their own workload to worry about... so juz a dream la.. dun read too much into it ... haha :-p i got wild imagination.. tt's why.. maybe i'm feeling too shacked that's why keep wanting to find someone to depend on, to help me with my school work, my life...n perhaps other aspects in my life... basically having someone whenever uneed someone..

* When I tried to speak up, felt like no one could hear me, I wanted so badly to belong here, but I can sense that something's so wrong here..**

* At times I felt as though I'm forced to fake a smile everyday of my life, maybe that's wat everyone else does in this world*

*I felt like running away to a place, free of worries and troubles.. filled with music, happiness and joy...**

Will someone get me OUT of here, PLEASE!!!

Cheers!

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