oh well... i haven't had it good these days... is it coz my mind is still set on holiday mood? The projects? School? or was it juz that i cant get used to the fact that u and me got to start work and lead busy lifestyles...?
The unhappiness was quite obvious i guess.... even though i tried my best to hide it ... as i never like to let my mood affect my friends around me..... but in the end.. they can still tell... sorrie guys...
I guess so... i admit i'm the fight starter... not gonna let this happen again... really dun mean to start it...guess i'm juz overly paranoid... always worrying about stuffs that are not true at all.....
maybe i'm too used to having someone there when there's a problem... so when someone couldnt be there for a valid reason i start to let my mind wander in the negative way... caught in the middle...i'm upset when i can't reach the person during that point in time... but on the other hand due to the valid reason i can't blame the person also.... I guess that's when i feel paranoid.. kinda silly...not knowing how to express the insecurities and unhappiness i resort to picking up fights...
i do deserve a slap at times :-(....well, i guess i juz needed more assurances during low periods of my life...and when i dun get it... i vent the frustrations in the wrong way.. hope to seek ur understanding...
in future muz learn to think more positively... let this be one of my new year resolutions for 2007 .. muz also learn to appreciate people's good points... and overlook their flaws....
It seems like such a long time before i can experience what i have been looking forward to....
sighz :-(
there will be like 2 tests this coming week.... :-(...
Amongst all the sucking projects... i worry most about Fac magt individual assignment.. i really have no idea about what's expect .. *sighz*... mental stress over this project..... :-( juz shoot me...juz wanna pass tt's all, on top of that there are a few other assignments to worry about....
I am such a worry wart....worrying doesnt get me anywhere.. but i juz cant help it..
i think i will be happy juz to get thru this suckin semester smoothly..... with no retakes.. juz one time smoothly...
*Thanks Mary and Joch for ur thought or ideas... haha .. and thanks also for ur smses to cheer me up...thks for ur concern :-p very much appreciated... **
*Projects suck... suck.... suck ....:-(**
*The sacrifice of ur sleep time was very much appreciated.. thanks :-p*
*Without u, the third guitar wouldn't be possible at all... thanks :-p*
*Hope tt u will continue to be there for me for always... support and console me whenever i'm down like u always did... **
I'm Considered quite lucky... i got 3 guitars... all 3 are gifts from my loved ones...
First guitar from my dad... Second Guitar from my sister and brother-in-law and the third guitar from him, lao shi and the rest of my guitar mates... :-p
Thanks to them all... i cherish all three guitars .... all three guitars are of special significance to me... gives me a different feel when playing each of them... I love them all.... :-p
*我实在不该想太多，我应该全心全意的去相信你的一切*
*抱歉又让你难过，我告诉我自己不会再有下一次， 但还是需要你的包容， 体谅与谅解。。*
*一个人时希望时间快点过，两个人时又不断希望时间能够一直停留在此刻。。**
*只要不在我视线范围内，思念就开始。。**
思念不断。。。
06-01-07
5.32pm
Saturday
It’s touching if someone notices ur need without u having to say or do anything, and even more touching if the same person tries his best to satisfy ur need even before u take any actions to satisfy ur own needs.
