Recently, life hasn't been too good to me .. I Nv knew my life was previously good until recently when problems hit me all at once, then I realized how fortunate I was in the past. I guess we only learn to cherish something only when it's gone; (the god damn bloody human nature deserves to be hanged indeed.) 

Basically, it's me dealing against ageing ailments of my daddy and my dog ..and of Cos not forgetting my monetarily oriented mother.  It's an on going war.. Juz me, myself and I against all these. 

It's a tiring process. I'm not denying that. 

Waking up in the middle of the night or not being able to sleep at all when my dog is feeling restlessly unwell or rushing frantically off to hospital after work for the past few days ..and then rushing back home to make dinner and clean up the mess my dog created, after all's done.. When it's time to rest perhaps it's also time to change doggy diapers. 

Waking up in the wee hours of the morning seems like a norm these days , on certain nights I juz woke up in fear that my dog is whining in pain and yearning for my assistance, breaking in cold sweat only to realize its my hallucination. Well, false alarm or not, I juz don't wanna risk it, risk having her helpless; so I became very jumpy at night, and shagged in the day. 

I'm really not complaining no I'm not. I'm doing all these out of my own free will. Ok maybe I'm juz whining and ranting. And of cos Nv will u ever neglect the monetarily oriented mom who makes noises that's oh so tormenting to the ears, mood and soul. 

Moments like this, 

I wish for a bean stalk in which I can climb and climb till I finally disappear...